I have been diagnosed with Major Depression and Bipolar Disorder II, in my opinion is not to much depression as Anxiety.I can not use antidepresants as they make me very anxious. So, they prescribed anti-anxiety pills also wich make me fill like a zombie, lossing memory and lack of attention, so I lost my job and friends. Then, then decided to prescribe mood stabilizers then my TSH test got affected and they prescribed me thyroids pills. They put me with Quetiepine and I got a seizure and paralized muscles (and tongue). Anyway, I stoped funtioning and overmedicated, no energy, pannic, social fobia, and so on... I decided to stop (gradually) everything by myself and after a couple of months I am feeling MUCH better now...even, I came back to work, But, its difficult to deal with my changes of mood and thoughs , can not manage any emotion (neither bad nor good ones) they are so frecuents. My husband is not able to deal with it, he gets stucked on fights with me and I am really hurt. What to do?? Either or, with or without medications my life is so miserable!!! Sometimes I think about killing myself would stop my pain and the troubles to the rest of the people around me, Note: I have tried aditional treatments as nature pills, counselling, workshops, relaxations CDs, auto hypnosis therapy, positive afirmations, tons of books, religions, prayers, and so on with no results... Someone help me , pleaseeee!!