I have intimate friends I have had for at least fifteen years or more. I was diagnosed about ten years ago. BP11. 90 percent of those friends have remained through the hardest of times. One I told off, she didn't deserve it, but I cut her off because I thought she was judging me. My own sister, who is a nurse on disability, didn't talk to me for three years because of something I said. My manics are mainly angry and a tongue that could kill. I tell people right up front that I have BP11, told pastor when we changed chruches, told new friends at the church. I say, stay on your meds. The real friends will remain. Some will read up on BP or any mental illness. Some won't. My sister and I are friends, she is not my closest of friends but we are friends.
Have you tried talk therapy? Some counselors and psychs have sliding scales to help people be able to afford it. If you are on disability, don't you have ACCESS?
It is not wise to be off meds. You seem to be contiplating the idea of suicide? If you are call 911 and ask for a well check, or go to the emergency room.
If you make the decision to commit suicide, you will have taken away what only God has control over and that is when we die. You will also miss out on life when it gets good again.
Please know that everyone has a purpose, a uniqueness, worthy of 5 zillion laughs and breaths and at least 5 billion sunsets and sunrises and smelling a rose or gardenia.
Please Penelope push yourself to seek help.
Health and meds to you, zzzmykids
It took a lot of courage to give up your license like that.
ILADVOCATE is right. Your health must come first and you do not have to prove anything. I hope she finds some empathy and understanding of what a difficult time you have had.
She should not be asking about that aspect of your life. You definitely need to stay on medication as we all do here. Find a way to educate her. Nami friend and family support groups would be good for a start but also tell her about some books or websites about bipolar that can explain it better for her.