I am just so sick of everyone telling me how I should be feeling, I am sick of people telling me that I should be relieved to finally be diagnosed after years of been diagnosed. I am just so fed up with everything, it just makes me so angry that they think they have the right to tell me how I should feel.
This is me, not them. Am I relieved? Partially... But more than anything I am petrified and I feel lost, a diagnosis of depression or PTSD was simple, bipolar is not that simple. To me it means that nowadays, if I start spiralling, there is little to stop me, if I go manic what is there to stop me? All there really is, is medication and I've only just started on that.
People try to be supportive, but I just wish they'd stop acting as if it was something simple, it's not. My whole life has been turned upside down and I am petrified, there is no-one in my family with bipolar let alone depression. I feel so alone, and it hurts. I just wish that those around me could understand and stop telling me how I should feel.
I've only just been diagnosed for crying out loud, aren't I even allowed to have time to accept this on my own, and decide for myself how I feel in my own time.
How did other people cope with being told they were bipolar? I am so confused and just going through so many mixed emotions right now, and don't really have anybody else to talk to about this...