Poem for Thouht

[BeeKeeper]

Something i wrote this morning while in a dark place....

Night falls fast, I heard one say
For death lies near on each dark day

We hold it back and keep it far
We take our meds, we hide our scars

We hide all things that do us harm
In hopes we don’t break before the morn’

Yet something stays inside our head
Something screams for peace instead

How long, you ask, can this dance last?
The music calls you – take a chance

A chance of final sleeping peace
A chance of no drugs or therapy needs

But then you think of family and friends
Those left behind to tend your ends

You end your struggles but create others more
For the struggles and sorrow now are not yours.

Don’t cause others sorrow nor pass struggle on
You can hold on a day, feel the sun in the morn’

Night falls fast but the sun is warm
The struggle hard…and the call is yours.

[zzzmykids]

I write, as well, when I am at the bottom. And at the peaks but not in the middle.
This is very good.  I like it's rythm and the emotion flowing from it.
When like this, it pours out of our souls and can't be stopped.
I do worry for you.  This is not a safe place for me, when writing.
Are you contemplating the final rest through suicide?  Or just wishing it would come?
It was almost a month ago, I wrote four new poems, all dark.  The last two scarey and grim...will take to my psych.
But for a month, I am very functional, off of antidepressants at the request of my psych and on antianxiety ones instead.  This is my season to be w/o overwhelming depression and it has been awful, the worst, don't know what changed when he took me off the meds.
He has not found a antidepressant that has not had serious side effects since April when I stopped responding to effexor.
Sincerely,
zzzmykids....feel better  (((((hug)))))

[Xila31]

That is really good! It really says exactly feelings I've had, too. Thank you for sharing.