Last year, I was really in a bad way. I had not been dx'd yet, they had somehow missed a roaring mania where I spent thousands of dollars and didn't sleep for days on end. And other stuff. Anyway, I was in the midst of a mixed episode and I was very close to being psychotic. I slashed up my arms really bad, some 30 cuts, and I was told about 5 of them should have had a good number of stitches. It feels like a dream now, and at the time, I thought it was *funny*. I was laughing to myself when I was doing it.
Anyway, a few days later I was hospitalized. It was a real sucky psychiatric hospital, but a doctor did something to me there that angers me now when I think about it. He put me on a medication, didn't tell me about it. When the nurses tried to give it to me, I asked what it was for and she just said "oh, a lot of things" and would not tell me. The next day, I noticed my arms stinging fiercely. The felt like they were fresh cuts, like I had just sliced them open. I have a high pain tolerance, so I said nothing about it. It never crossed my mind that it was because of that pill. Then I went in to see the doctor for the day. He put on a sneer and said "So, how are you arms? Hurt enough for you?". It turns out, the medicine he put me on had a side effect. It intensifies pain. He then told me this. He was like "Maybe you'll think twice next time, huh?"...like pain would stop me if I wanted to do it. Please.
The more I think on it, the more angry I become. His sole purpose was to cause me pain. I wish I could remember what the medication was called...if anyone knows, please tell me.
I checked the hospital's website and he no longer works there. Everyone, even the staff, hated him, so he probably was fired. But should I file a complaint with the medical board or something? I've never filed a complain on anyone, ever. I usually get on great with staff at mental hospitals.
What should I do? Should I just let it go, or should I file a complaint? And how do I go about doing such a thing?
Thanks in advance.