I am bi-polar, but I feel like for the last couple of weeks I don't feel anything but pain and and yet numb. I hate this way of life. Sometimes I think I have a handle on everything bipolar, depression, chronic pain and last but not least feeling like I'll never stop eating and lose weight. But those times are becoming less and less. I have got so much support from from friends on several forums. But I have felt to down and tired to post so I haven't heard from anybody. I miss the support, but I'm just too tired (depressed) to post on all the forums and I'm afraid I'll end up out of the loop. This isn't making any sense at all. I'm sorry I quess I wanted to complain, but I've run out of steam. I wish I could let all my friends know I haven't dropped off the earth, but I really wish I could.
Then the cycle repeats...
For me this is the way of bipolar. I want you to know that I am here. And although everyone's experiences are different, if you can see some similarity's in what i have written, then you will know you are not alone. and some how for me that it what gives me some comfort and relief. that i am not some freak of nature but just someone who has a mood disorder. And that this world is a terrifying place at times but it can be a great place too. The only way to make sense of things is to realize that all these thoughts and feelings are the disorder! then that makes us normal.
A BIG HUG FROM ME!