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Unmedicated am i really risking everything

I was diagnosed 4 years ago as bpII and tried many many many medications, due to side effects and the beleif i was overmedicated and didnt want to go onto other medications my new doctor was recomending we agreed to try non medicated period. Its been about 6 months i think, i have definatley had some mild episode and then the last 3 weeks i have been in a mixed state i would guess. A week or so ago i had a terrible night and stayed awake alL night and was experiencing something quite terifying, i guess i was in a state and perhaps if i have ever been at risk then this was a close call. I am high functioning, i still get up and do all the things i have to do as a mother and a business owner, although i would consider myself fragile emotionally at the moment i think im ok and i will get by. I seem to be ok and able to get on day to day until something happens and then i sprial emotionally and find im in crisis inside but again i think i manage.

am i just being in denial am i risking everything, i told my therapist i didnt need to see him anymore and he was concerened considerring my current state, i just dont see it, what am i risking?
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I came off all meds at the start of Feb by my own choice. I was on them for about 4 years before hand. I have definatley had a steep learning curve and have found it pretty difficult 95% of the time. The job I am trying to get being on medication etc would seriously hamper my chances of getting. I havent opened my mouth to my psychiatrist in over two years so as I can get disscharged no matter how Ive felt. The same as you I still manage to get up go to work, train and do all the usual life stuff but really Im just walking round with a pretend face on becasue im serously unhappy inside and Im fast becoming very sick again.You are risking it, Im risking everything too trying to get somewhere because its so important to me and if I dont get there life wont be worth it in my eyes anyways, I will have spent years fighting for something. My life definatley is a lot harder off the meds and from what I have seen so far will only get harder,Im in a catch 22 situation becasue I cant even get help if I wanted to becasue i cant afford to have it on my medical records. My advice would be to do whatever makes life the best, most comfortable and safe for you. Dont fight endless battles if you dont have to, Im trying to ride the storm in the hope that it has a happy ending but its really not pleasant but unfortuantley there is no other way. I wish you all the best whatever you decide.
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I lost everything bc on being unmedicated
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Well hell1971, I'm going to be brutally honest with you.  The people at PACT told me with bipolar disorder as well as schizophrenia, it causes permanent brain damage each time you have a full blown episode making recovery less and less fuller as time passes.
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hi i have bipolar aswell. what are you risking is a good question to ask but a hard one to answer. i have always been on medication since i was diagnosed, however i have tried some and didnt work and then had to try others and different doses. i was on lithium for two years and now i am off of it. i take seroquel xr and standard seroquel and lexapro. i think if you are having a hard time without medication maybe just give some new medication a try, i mean the worst that can happen is it doesnt work.i am a hairdresser and was running my own business from home. i had the worst break down about 6 weeks ago and i have had to take a break for awhile. the lithium was keeping me stable but for me the side effects were not worth taking it. i hope you can firgure out what works best for you. all the best :-}
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