I have bipolar disorder, and am currently being treated with the Lamictal/Wellbutrin combo as you are. I understand the frustration with the lack of motivation etc. I still deal with it occasionally too. But I really agree with jen about not taking Ritalin... It's a stimulant, and it can (and most likely will) trigger a SERIOUS manic episode, especially if you discontinue your other meds.
I know what stimulants can do to a bipolar person first hand. For two years before I was diagnosised with BP, I was treated for ADD with Adderall (a stimulant like Ritalin.) It may FEEL like your better for awhile, but what you will be is manic. Stimulants with BP can also trigger seizures and involuntary muscles movements of the legs, hands, and head. These 'ticks' can become permanent if the BP person is treated with stimulants too long.
The lack of attention and focus a BP person experiences is NOT ADD- and it should never be treated with an ADD drug. It's part of your depression cycle, it won't be fixed with a stimulant- and the depression that follows will be awful. I know firsthand.
I do have one suggestion for your focus issues-- WALK. I know it sounds all goody-goody, but it really, REALLY helps. Do some kind of moderate, EASY exercise for 20-30 minutes, 3-4 days a week-- But ESPECIALLY when you are having a tough day mentallly. Go for a walk, put on headphones and ride a bike- whatever you like, just MOVE for 20 minutes daily. It will SERIOUSLY help. It so good for your brain, and it's not more drugs.
I hope this helps.
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If the Lamictal and Wellbutrin helped decrease your suicidal thoughts, I would not recommend discontinuing them. The symptoms you are describing of lack of focus and motivation are likely due to the ADD. The addition of an ADD medication to your current regimen could be that final piece of the puzzle put together to help you feel better. If you discontinue the Lamictal and Wellbutrin, you are much more likely to relapse into a severe depression. The Ritalin alone is not going to fix that. Stimulants like Ritalin can actually make bipolar disorder worse when used alone. Did your therapist recommend discontinuing the Lamictal and Wellbutrin? Are you discontinuing the medications under a doctor's supervision?