Who can i talk to?

[Jane1593]

Im 15
Ive been bullied since i was 6
i hate myself
i feel like noone knows me
i feel guilty and unworthy
i feel like a failure
nothing seems to make me happy
i have to fake happiness to get by
i dont know what to do
there is so much for me to say
and i need  someone to talk to
but i dont want to see my doctor

[meichan]

you know it was the same for me but it ended a year back when i started to feel sorry not for myself but for them i didn't tell them this and you know what i am living my life like i want to plus the only thing is that the ones who're being bullied or cursed at aren't the weak ones the weak ones are those who bully them they can't do anything right themselves so they bully others to show their supremacy that's what i realized and in case of your family you have to prove them wrong if you ask me the best way to have all your answers is to talk about it if your scared to do that just talk about it with god that's the best way i know to be satisfy yourself and become prosperous..... i pray for your peace and happiness andi reaaly sorry if any of this offended you...:)

[ILADVOCATE]

Yes that can be unnerving. I did not start treatment until I was 18 and the family or school did not know how to help me but that was two decades ago and now schools are far more educated now about depression and other psychiatric disabilities and things have improved vastly. The school guidance counselor should be able to make an appropriate referral if you need help.

[Jane1593]

I didnt write everything about myself on this, i was panicing. Yes i was bullied since i was 6 but it ended 2 years ago, my school said that they would get involved and help me, but they were useless. I dreaded every day of going to school, and i recently found out that one of the teachers who was supposedly supporting me thought i was an annoying s**t to say the least. My parents were never around when i was a child and theyve had some things said to me that put me down and made me feel sad. Im forever doubting my acheivements and not feeling good enough for them. Or myself. My being alone for the first few years of my primary school means i find it extremely hard to talk to people and to be alone, i did a huge thing for a person who i thought was my freind, and she has never shown any appreciation for it. My "best freind" does not beleive what i tell her and she thinks i am lying in order to get attention. If i try to tell her my problems, she screams at me, asking me why i would be so selfish. I am now her sounding board and i listen to her every word. I have a brother who is encredibly spoilt and very arrogant, and my parents hardly care what i do. In general i have a constant overwhelming feeling of sadness and worthlessness, i have no other freinds other than her, and as a result noone to talk to when i feel down. I feel like the people around me dispise my presence and therefore i do not want to get involved with my school. I dont think its something i can just put behind me, and lately i have been bursting into tears for no reason, and having an overwhelming fear of things that i have never had a problem with before. Some days are worse than others but i generaly go to school with a happy face on, i suck it up and keep going. I just dont know how long i can keep doing this until i crash again. My family has had a history of deppression, and both my parents went to counciling when they were my age. I really dont know what is going on and i am quite scared, i really need to talk to someone, but i find it so hard to talk.

[ANGAL1382]

FIRST OFF I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU THAT EVEN WHEN YOU FEEL ALONE THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE THERE.....PEERS CAN BE STRIAGHT UP MEAN AND MAKE YOU FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT YOURSELF BUT YOUR 15 AND THERES ONLY A FEW MORE YEARS TILL YOULL BE OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL. DO YOU HAVE ANY BROTHERS OR SISTERS THAT YOU MIGHT BE ABLE TO TALK TO ....OR A FRIEND....MAYBE WRITE IN A NOTEBOOK ANYTHING TO GET IT OUT SO YOU CAN PUT IT BEHIND YOU.

[ILADVOCATE]

If you don't feel comfortable speaking to your doctor speak to the school guidance counselor. They could directly put a stop to any bullying you are experiencing. I know that I had the same issues growing up and the school guidance counselor directly intervened as regards other kids who were bullying me and it never happenned again.