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I was diagnosed many yrs ago bipolar with phycotic tend,ocd,PTSD,add. In the years of sessions I never told any of them about how I always constantly hear talking like in a busy restaurant and sometimes just one voice just screaming my name or whispering muffled. I also see things always and feel like I'm being watched everyday and video taped. This is not just during manias all of this is almost everyday. Could I have the wrong diagnose. I am afraid to tell dr 's. I always have severe fights with the doctors for days in my head before going to them. So when I get at office I just fight her from clawing out of my eyes and punching them for being such stupid DR's and not seeing it in me. I just smile and say I'm okay meds please while white knuckling the chair. I'm scared. Oh by the way I also have severe social anxiety disorder diagnose. Can anyone tell me what is going on.
Sounds like a really tough situation. I hear what you said about the Geodon. I don't like having a doctor who insists I take a med I don't want to take or is causing me problems. I know there are a few more meds out there besides the one med that is being pushed.
It doesn't sound like the meds you aren't enough to help you. That's obvious from what you related in your posts so far. Unfortunately, a lot of meds that work on the things you are experiencing has a sedating effect, especially when you first go on them. For me and others, the sedating effect and sleepiness wears off after a 2 or more months, and it depends on whether the dose gets increased up to control the psychotic symptoms like seeing, hearing things, feeling like eyes are being clawed out, feeling videotaped, feeling like you need to fight, and stuff like that.
It's really hard to raise children when you are going through all those things. I don't know how you manage, but it speaks alot about your strength. Are you a single parent? What does your family dr. who is prescribing your psych meds say about all this? Oh, I forgot that he doesn't know you see and hear things. That explains why you are only on a mood stabilizer and a nervous system stimulant. Those 2 meds won't address your psychotic symptoms.
I think you need to see a psychiatrist. Your family doctor may be great as a family doctor, but it may be out of his expertise to treat you for your psychiatric disorders. My own primary doctor will not even try to manage my psychiatric conditions. If you can't see and don't like the one psychiatrist in town, can you see the ones in the neighboring towns? You can talk to your family doctor about it.
I looked up the mental health resources in your town, and noticed there are a few, at least a couple, of mental health clinics there. it doesn't look like they have any psychiatrists in them, but they may be able to connect you with resources. You don't know unless you ask. Have you looked into them? It seems like a focus on family health in your town. I looked at the community page of your town's website and also did a browser search on psychiatric and mental health in your town. That is also how I saw what psychiatrists were available inyour town and area. Contact information are listed and some general information about them.
It doesn't sound like the meds you aren't enough to help you. That's obvious from what you related in your posts so far. Unfortunately, a lot of meds that work on the things you are experiencing has a sedating effect, especially when you first go on them. For me and others, the sedating effect and sleepiness wears off after a 2 or more months, and it depends on whether the dose gets increased up to control the psychotic symptoms like seeing, hearing things, feeling like eyes are being clawed out, feeling videotaped, feeling like you need to fight, and stuff like that.
It's really hard to raise children when you are going through all those things. I don't know how you manage, but it speaks alot about your strength. Are you a single parent? What does your family dr. who is prescribing your psych meds say about all this? Oh, I forgot that he doesn't know you see and hear things. That explains why you are only on a mood stabilizer and a nervous system stimulant. Those 2 meds won't address your psychotic symptoms.
I think you need to see a psychiatrist. Your family doctor may be great as a family doctor, but it may be out of his expertise to treat you for your psychiatric disorders. My own primary doctor will not even try to manage my psychiatric conditions. If you can't see and don't like the one psychiatrist in town, can you see the ones in the neighboring towns? You can talk to your family doctor about it.
I looked up the mental health resources in your town, and noticed there are a few, at least a couple, of mental health clinics there. it doesn't look like they have any psychiatrists in them, but they may be able to connect you with resources. You don't know unless you ask. Have you looked into them? It seems like a focus on family health in your town. I looked at the community page of your town's website and also did a browser search on psychiatric and mental health in your town. That is also how I saw what psychiatrists were available inyour town and area. Contact information are listed and some general information about them.
I am taking lamictol 400 mg a day ,aderrall 40 mg a day. I get this from family Dr. I saw many psychiatrist over the yrs. The last one I tried was over year ago and right away I could tell she was the I'm GOD type telling me my other health problems are in my head when I have been diagnosed with interstitial cystitits, endometriosis, and cervix cancer had hysterectomy because of it. So she wanted me on geodon which I tried and it ***** so I told her but she was insisting so I never went back. The lamictol helps my mood but I don't take anything for the hallucinations or voices because it will make me comatose and I have kids one of which has autism so I just deal.
Are you taking any psychiatric medications currently prescribed from your family doctor now? Were you prescribed medications by the other doctor and what kind of head doctor was he? A psychiatrist or a psychologist? If you were prescribed medications before, did they help you?
I am so sorry I am in hurry as well right now got to wake kids. I forgot to say how sorry I am you are going thru the depressive stage right now. I am here for you as well. I will have my kids out on the buses at 7:30 and be back for support if you need me. Hang on. I'm here. We all are from the responses I've gotten I can see this.
Thank you for direct easy Q's for me to answer. It makes it easier for me. I started hearing things at around 11-12 I guess. I remember always covering my drinks as well at that age at night with paper then wrapping rubber bands around and putting a piece of my hair on it to know when I woke up to drink if it had been moved because I use to think I was trying to be poisoned by these small invisible people only I saw. Some nights I would see these gel like bodies on top of me choking me while this long black hair woman at the end of me need with fire in her eyes just watched. It had this till about 17 then the hallucinations became more of black creatures and gray ash long clawed creatures with very long claws. I feel them all around me at times. They are quick. My animals even freak out some night growling at the ceilings. And barking like crazy. I truly feel possessed by demons it is scary. I wake sometimes and don't remember the day before and freak out. Sometimes I would see snakes crawl out my child. I smell stuff rotting too. I can never find the source though. I try to pray fast hard but some nights it won't let me get the praying out. It's like it has sewn my lips shut. I get so scared. My mom is bipolar as well but I think she is really a shocialpath. I have fantasized her death since a was. Very young. I would never hurt her. When she dies though I think I might be able to breath and no what it feels like to feel free like the rest of the world. I just hope I outlive her to feel it. Some days I think she will outlive me then I will never know.
Thank you for input, no I am not really assaulting him, this thing in me always wants to crawl out my eyes when in the offices of drs and tear of e smiling faces of them. I don't let it though. I just hate it all. It has been over a yr since I have been to a specialist I have been seeing family Dr for all this. The other Dr won't see me because I missed two appt last yr and I live in Calhoun no other Dr around to help with head that's why I can on here.
I also certainly hope that you and your dr. aren't actually and really physically assaulting each other, before just calling it a day and smile and ask for meds. Just reality checking here.
Sorry I was in a hurry earlier. I have had hallucinations in times of mania and also depression. I didn't want to just throw out something so I have to ask. How long have the voices been going on? What do you see when you are hallucinating? It is hard to really help without knowing more about your mental health history. I have bipolar type 1, chronic PTSD, anti-social anxiety disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I am in a state of depression right now and am trying to come out of it but have not been able to.
You know, what is obvious to you is not obvious to others, including doctors. They aren't psychic and they don't have superhuman abilities. At best, they can guess, and usually they will ask questions. I know people who sit in the chair and don't say a word and don't answer questions. I was one of them for awhile. You may want to let the doctor know you are hearing voices.
Yes. You can have bipolar disorder with psychotic tendencies and hallucinate and hear voices all the time with depression, mania, mixed states and stable enough in between. I lived with them for a long time, and some medications helped cut them down, and only in the last 2 years, I haven't heard any or seen, smelled or felt things that aren't there. They went away gradually or it took me awhile to notice they weren't there anymore. These days, on very stressed out times or situations that really test me on, I noticed I will experience something like that for a very short moment. That's when I know I will have to back off and be aware of how I am handling things, and take it as a warning sign that I'm in danger of slipping, and I would need to call the psychiatrist and tell him about it. I know he will adjust my meds, and decide hether he needs to see me to evaluate me further.
Like you, I couldn't tell the dr. I was hearing things or having a lot of conversations in my head. Yeah, the muffled voice or the voice that talks to you and you think you know what they are saying but for the life of you, you can't really say what they are saying...very irritating, numbing and annoying. I also had the very clear messges and conversations. Not all of them were people either.
I wasn't schiophrenic, and schizoaffective was explored and dismissed. The doctor scenario and fights in your head. Gone through that too. I did it for anxiety and coping reasons. So much was unpredictable and uncertain and I was walking on static and eggshells all the time. I did those mind scenarios to make things more predictable but it didn't make things any easier. I had to try and say something and trust someone.
I took a leap of faith and just said to the dr. I hear someone talking to me. That was all I could manage to say. After that I either nodded, shook my head or struggled to say something more. I knew It was scary for me to say that because I knew the voices didn't want me to say anything. The doctor took it pretty seriously and he realized immediately that I was scared and very uncomfortable. He asked me questions until I raised my hand to tell him to stop and not ask me anymore. The dr. was careful and kind about it. He probably noticed I was really uneasy and scared out of my mind, but who knows. He put me on a med that eased it up. I think I said don't tell anyone or don't let them know to the dr. It was a long time ago. I just remember I asked that it be kept a secret because that's what the voices wanted. He's had patients who heard voices before. After that, he could pretty much tell that I was listening and seeing people and things in the room besides the 2 of us.
Not everyone with bipolar disorder goes through that. I know it helps to know that there are people who do.
The social anxiety and the voices probably go hand in hand. It's hard to be social when you have a party in your head. When things got a little quieter up there, I could interact with people better.
Yes. You can have bipolar disorder with psychotic tendencies and hallucinate and hear voices all the time with depression, mania, mixed states and stable enough in between. I lived with them for a long time, and some medications helped cut them down, and only in the last 2 years, I haven't heard any or seen, smelled or felt things that aren't there. They went away gradually or it took me awhile to notice they weren't there anymore. These days, on very stressed out times or situations that really test me on, I noticed I will experience something like that for a very short moment. That's when I know I will have to back off and be aware of how I am handling things, and take it as a warning sign that I'm in danger of slipping, and I would need to call the psychiatrist and tell him about it. I know he will adjust my meds, and decide hether he needs to see me to evaluate me further.
Like you, I couldn't tell the dr. I was hearing things or having a lot of conversations in my head. Yeah, the muffled voice or the voice that talks to you and you think you know what they are saying but for the life of you, you can't really say what they are saying...very irritating, numbing and annoying. I also had the very clear messges and conversations. Not all of them were people either.
I wasn't schiophrenic, and schizoaffective was explored and dismissed. The doctor scenario and fights in your head. Gone through that too. I did it for anxiety and coping reasons. So much was unpredictable and uncertain and I was walking on static and eggshells all the time. I did those mind scenarios to make things more predictable but it didn't make things any easier. I had to try and say something and trust someone.
I took a leap of faith and just said to the dr. I hear someone talking to me. That was all I could manage to say. After that I either nodded, shook my head or struggled to say something more. I knew It was scary for me to say that because I knew the voices didn't want me to say anything. The doctor took it pretty seriously and he realized immediately that I was scared and very uncomfortable. He asked me questions until I raised my hand to tell him to stop and not ask me anymore. The dr. was careful and kind about it. He probably noticed I was really uneasy and scared out of my mind, but who knows. He put me on a med that eased it up. I think I said don't tell anyone or don't let them know to the dr. It was a long time ago. I just remember I asked that it be kept a secret because that's what the voices wanted. He's had patients who heard voices before. After that, he could pretty much tell that I was listening and seeing people and things in the room besides the 2 of us.
Not everyone with bipolar disorder goes through that. I know it helps to know that there are people who do.
The social anxiety and the voices probably go hand in hand. It's hard to be social when you have a party in your head. When things got a little quieter up there, I could interact with people better.
if you ever want to talk just ask or find me
im bipolar ptsd adhd and to many others to list
i know how it is but get treatment and stay with it
5 years of progress or more meds and therapy and different diet
not the wild diets you see everywhere just a few changes
and we need a support system even if its a invisible person on the web
im bipolar ptsd adhd and to many others to list
i know how it is but get treatment and stay with it
5 years of progress or more meds and therapy and different diet
not the wild diets you see everywhere just a few changes
and we need a support system even if its a invisible person on the web
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