What is wrong with me???????

[why26]

For a few years now I have been on and off anti-depressant meds. Over the past five years, they would help for a while then I would stop. Either I didn't want to be dependant or they didn't help or I felt as though I didn't need them. When I felt as though I did... it hit hard...constantly pushing myself through the day..so tired.... over eating (when alone or in the middle of the night)... trouble sleeping... quick bursts of anger (sometimes scary....so glad I could control it or back pedal out of it... lately, Ive noticed that I am avoiding discussing staff issues that need to be delt with at work) ..... days when Im racing ...almost another person... too happy and jovial around others... then feeling soooo low. Ive talked to a few doctors over the past few years... never received a clear understanding.... just depression.... what is going on???????

[adel_ezz]

This sounds BP to me definitely but i am not a doc to tell. In which case antidepressant WORSEN symptoms and not advisable at all causing rapid cycling and mixed states/episodes; especially if you are not under an MS. You NEED a better pdoc I suppose. You can take AD's for unipolar depression i believe but i had a terrible time when on cipralex even under antipsychotics as i couldn't control my symptoms. So no need to suffer and consult a good pdoc. Don't give it up and search for a competent psychiatrist
good luck ezz

[jdavenport18]

ive been having the same issues. ive been on and off medications for major depressive disorder for about 4 or 5 yrs. ive seen 2 different psychiatrist and the most recent spoke to me about BP saying it might be a possibilty. that my racing thoughts, OCD feelings, etc were like a manic phase but not full blown kind of thing. when im depressed...im severely depressed-suicidal feelings. ive been off my meds for about a yr and a half or so and im starting to have terrible mood swings. im starting to believe he may have been right. i have impulses to throw things and start yelling things. its like im a completely different person and i feel like i have no control over myself. ive put holes in walls. my mood literally goes from the life of the party to this personal rage in literal minutes. needless to say, ive made an appt to speak with a psych yet again. i feel i was stupid for ever stopping my previous meds. good luck to you with everything.

[bastet56]

Sounds like BP to me too. Also, you probably feel good because the meds are working and when you go off you suffer for it. I think you need to be evaluated for BP and if you are, you need to go one the appropriate meds and STAY on them.

[ILADVOCATE]

Anti-depressents can often worsen mania and don't treat it. Don't make any changes as regards your medications but speak to your psychiatrist about the fact that you have moodswings not just depression and then they might update your diagnosis and treatment. Explain what's going on and have a full conversation with them about it.

[Germur]

It is hard to say.  It sounds like the symtoms of bp, however, it is best to seek professional help to come up with a diagnosis and treatment plan.  Good luck