why must I suffer?

[lizzy6335]

Life unexplainible, pain hard, why must I suffer no happiness how come it hurts to smile? How come I cry myself to sleep? How come I cannot handle my own screams? I am scared and lost. But nobody cares help! No why because I'm all alone! Am I? Yes! Forever!

[gofio]

Try to concentrate on what others need. Depression makes sufferers selfish. Seek professional help, you are one among probably millions of others needing qualified treatment. Get help without delay. Lots of options available. Good luck.

[rhudson123]

Oh honey - because this is an awful, imperfect world.  And we this unfair condition that makes us seen things not as they are; that makes us believe lies; that steals our ability to decipher reality from paranoia.  

I know the absolute anguish you are feeling.  The pain that you feel will never go away.

I want to encourage you to get help from a professional(s).  A counselor and psych doc.  I believe you should see professionals because you'll be less likely to let your emotions get the better of you and negate whatever they recommend.

I know when I'm feeling like you are, even if my friends are trying to be supportive - and saying all the right things - in my mind they can't say or do anything right.

You don't know us.  Pop in often.  Here's another good site where I've gotten great support.  www.psychforums.com

I look forward to hearing good things from  you.  Hang in there, and remember - we do care.