Is Depo ruining my life?

[LilimLee]

When I was 14 my mother and step mother decided to have me on birth control, my dad was against it, because I went 5 months without my period. When I finally had it I bleed so much within 10 days I ended up in the ER 2 times. When I was 19 I decided to stop taking it and to see how my body does. I did gain over 50 pounds from it, and could never lose weight, other then that I have had no problems. I knew that my periods would be weird without it for a while, but it has been almost 3 years without it and my periods last anywhere from 2 weeks to a few months. I'll have only a weeks break between each on. For the past 4 months I have been on my period, with a 1 week break 2 times, but I am having blood clots as well now,  size of dimes to golf balls. I have went to the ER and they tell me everything is fine and to just be on birth control. The pills made me bleed more. I would tell the doctors at the ER I have been trying to have a baby for a year now with no luck. They told me that I shouldn't worry about getting pregnant due to being 21 going on 22. My fiancee is starting to get annoyed by not being able to have any sexual desire, but he is now worried that something is seriously wrong. Should I go back to birth control? If so which one?

[specialmom]

I don't think it messed you up for life but your hormones are out of sync it does appear.  Do you see a gynecologist?  I would do so.  I think you should go back on the pill (not depo) based on the hormone levels you are currently at-- different ones are more of one hormone verses another.  So, the pill may get you back on track but see your doctor to determine which is the best option for you. good luck