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I can't stop talking to myself???!!!
I can't stop talking to myself, I have full blown conversation with myself, i Act out scenarios, I pretend these people are here watching me and can see me. Talk to myself out loud. It's interfering with my day to day life, I'll try and leave the group of people I'm with so I can go sit in my room and talk to myself and make up scenerios. I have social Aniexty and when I got really anixious I tried to distract myself from the thing that was making me nervous so I would think about other things and that's when the day dreams started and my Aniexty got worse so the more I did it. It was like an escape mechnasim. My Aniexty got worse and the more i daydreamed. It went from thinking about other things to making up stories in my head to having conversations with myself to acting out things.
It's fine until people started seeing that I was doing it and people started noticing and mentioning to me that I talk to myself and half way through a conversation I would look the other way and say something like they could see my lips move. As if I was talking to someone who was there. It's a way of copying with my Aniexty rather then dealing with it. But it's gotten so bad to the point where I'm doing it when I'm having a conversation with myself it's like a habit. I day dream when I'm bored, when I'm nervous. When I have nothing else to do but then I would rather sit there by myself then to go out with my friends. My day dreams are better then reality. I can't stop doing it. The sad question is, how do I stop doing something that is keeping me alive that's the only thing making me happy. When I'm drunk I don't do it but I have to drink a lot. Am I depressed? Is it my Aniexty? I know I'm doing it but I can't stop doing it. I know it's crazy and I sound crazy. But I need some advise or help or to know someone else out there is dealing with the same thing. I looked up maladaptive daydreaming and I think that's what I have but I'm to scared to go to my doctor and describe what I just wrote here. I can't even tell my family.
It's fine until people started seeing that I was doing it and people started noticing and mentioning to me that I talk to myself and half way through a conversation I would look the other way and say something like they could see my lips move. As if I was talking to someone who was there. It's a way of copying with my Aniexty rather then dealing with it. But it's gotten so bad to the point where I'm doing it when I'm having a conversation with myself it's like a habit. I day dream when I'm bored, when I'm nervous. When I have nothing else to do but then I would rather sit there by myself then to go out with my friends. My day dreams are better then reality. I can't stop doing it. The sad question is, how do I stop doing something that is keeping me alive that's the only thing making me happy. When I'm drunk I don't do it but I have to drink a lot. Am I depressed? Is it my Aniexty? I know I'm doing it but I can't stop doing it. I know it's crazy and I sound crazy. But I need some advise or help or to know someone else out there is dealing with the same thing. I looked up maladaptive daydreaming and I think that's what I have but I'm to scared to go to my doctor and describe what I just wrote here. I can't even tell my family.
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