Have you ever wondered why God has neverending grace and love for us? After my daughter died in 1991, I turned my back totally on God, wanted nothing to do with Him, didnt even want to hear His name. I was a born again christian when this happened. I stayed away form the Lord for 18 years, had many setbacks in those years, lost my marriage , my health , and blamed Him for it all. God let me terry and wander, but He brought me back, and when I did come back, He welcome me with open loving arms.
Since I have rededicaated my life back to God, seems like He has poured out one blessing after another on me. I was delivered from drug addicition, depression, healed me of a bowl obstruction...showed favor now I am at the top of the transplant list for a kidney. Today, i got news that the local hospital has accepted me to volunteer on the chaplains staff.
I have felt led and have prayed about this, that this is something the Lord wants me to do. When i passed all the backround checks, and all the other things they do to check you out, and they said yes, I now know this is what God wants me to do for now. I am so happy about this. I will be able to minisiter to people in dialysis, onocolgy, or anywhere they need me. I just want to be a vessel for the Lord to work through, for the Glory of God's kingdom. This has nothing to do about me, I just want to do the Lord's work
Now I can't help to think, why after all I have done wrong in my life...the drug use, chasing the almighty dollar, not caring about my fellow man, and turning my back on the Lord for so many years. He welcomes me back with His love and grace. All the blessings He has poured out on me.. it really blows my mind!!..we serve such a loving wonderful God...He will let us try our own way and really screw up and when we hit the lowest of lows, God opens His arms and says come I will hold you and comfort you, and love you and most importanly if we really want it ...forgive us. ..His love for us is so great I dont know of any words can describe it? God Bless everyone, and just always remember that God's love and grace is never ending and is there for us at all time..why that is I am not sure, I am just so glad and happy that we are covered by the Blood of Jesus, and we are loved that much...God Bless...brian