Hello

[Bkitty2]

I'm still here. I'm sad to report that my 40 and fabulous year was the worst time of my life. Thank God I turned 41 last Sat. I'm ready to try again. I had been really busy working. I had not been feeling well at all since about April. I kept getting breakouts on my inner thighs that I thought was from shaving. I had been suffering these horrible migraines that requires freq trips to urgent care for a shot of Tordal, Zofran and high flow O2. I was put on imitrex but that only made me puke. They just kept happening. On 7/23 I woke up for work and could barely lift my arms. An ingrown hair I had grew to the size of a baseball. I made it to work. I don't know how. Came home and went to urgent care where they sent me to the ER. My WBC count was 30,000. I was also in acute renal failure and that ingrown hair was huge and black! I ended up going for surgery 7/24. On my a$$ of all places! Then it spread to the left side and back I went. Needless to say my poor butt. While in the hospital I was kept very comfortable and drugged up. I don't remember any of it. I yelled at the ICU nurse and I guess I was a real bear. I was in pain I couldn't even go to the bathroom and I was wearing a diaper! My condition deteriorated and my pressure dropped to 60/30. I stayed that way for 3 days. Thankfully the IV antibiotics kicked in. I was sent home 8/1 full of medications. I was on routine dilaudid. My primary told me it was equivalent to pharmaceutical heroin. I stopped taking that day of discharge and had a lot of pain and he started me on cymbalta and neurontin. Can I just say that is the BEST pain management ever. I doubted him and was going to ask for my favorite -perks. I'm so glad I didn't. I have lost over 50lbs in the past month. Blood work is normal. I'm still suffering post sepsis side effects. I have been thinking about all of you here. I miss you. I need you. I have made any meetings. Depression is here.  But I'm aware. I need to regroup. Back to basics. One day at a time. My wounds are healing nicely and fast!!!' I've almost died 2 times in my life. I feel I should have this new outlook on life. I feel guilty that I don't. I return to work Tomm and I'm asking for help and prayers. It's good to see everyone. I'm heading to bed but look forward to catching up to you.

I posted this on my regular forum and copied it to here as well and my friends are here also. I love and miss you. The kitties are doing fine. My Harley kitty ran away a few months ago. I know someone has him. He had a collar and everything. Beener is old. He has hematomas now in both ears from scratching. We use drops. He is comfortable. I can't believe he is still here but I treasure every minite. He doesn't like the dog. He slaps him a lot it's funny. The dog has now started howling when Beener howls. It's quite noisy at times.

[Piparskeggr]

Heya kid, glad to read that you are up around and doing better.

Hope Harley did in deed find a safe haven, Beener hanging in there is good, nice to see he has the energy to keep the dog in place.

[AppleBr]

Hi dear, hoping and praying for us all to get the bad times away soon...
Glad to know kids are fine.xo

[opus88]

well happy 41st year to you...sure hope its a much better one ahead dear...you've been thru so dang much already:(

nice to hear frm you, its been a long time and we missed you.....

sorry to hear Harley is lost, but glad that Beener is still hanging on...and the kitties are fine:)

good luck with starting back to work today, plz keep in touch:)