What caused my Kittens Death?

[EchoLeaks]

Yesterday my Kitten died and I want to know what caused her death directly. A wooden dog fence had squashed her after she had tried to climb it 11AM, and I guess hit her head because she had a seizure, deficated, and even stopped breathing temporarily. We did CPR on her and put her in a basket with a blanket, covered her with it (except her face.) and elevated her head when she seemed to be able to breath on her own but she her whole body was limp so we tried not to move her in the basket. Immedietly I thought we should take her to emergency but her breathing was irregular and my family believed that she would not make it, and if she did, the trip to the Emergency would be fatal for her. (being in a car with all that movement making her heart beat faster and needing more oxygen.) It was decided after much reluctancy that we would watch over her for a few hours and wait until her breathing got steady. In those few hours she began to react to Stimuli with her feet and legs. (She would retract her paw if you grabbed it, and try to scratch her back with her hind legs if you touch her fur.) However, her face was completly frozen and her eyes were open, but she would not move her eyes, focus on people or sounds, or react ANY sounds. The whole day from the accident till she died she had her eyes open. While breathing she would try to meow and no sound would come out, until eventually we can hear a small faint attempt at it, however she was still in the same state she was hours before. Convinced that watching her die like that was cruel, I took her to the local vet against the wishes of the household (I took her to the local vet because it was close by and less likely to affect her any further.) The vet put her on oxygen, put her on fluids, checked her tempeture, heart beat, gave her a anti-anflamitory shot and told me that she was perfectly healthy, fine in everything he tested and had no sign of things like blood coming from anywhere, but from the way she was acting she might have brain damage, even going as far as saying she might be brain dead from the trauma. He also said was hard for him to tell and only time could determine the issue. He told me to take the kitten home, after he confessed he didn't know if the Kitten would survive in general, or even just the night. (which now looking back, I am sure he thought she would not since he gave a discount for everything he did) but to just watch her, and if tommorow (Basically today) she still didnt make any movement or didnt react to any stimuli or anything that was done I would have to make a "decision." He gave me two free syringes and told me that if she did react to give her food mixed with water with the syringe. I took her home, cleaned her up, (So that she would urinate, which she did ALOT.) and kept her in a warm place like advised by the vet. A few hours went by and she seemed to be making louder noises, which made me hopeful of the situation. I tried to give her some water with the syringe (just water since the docter told me not to give her food for the rest of the day) since she urinated alot when I clearned her and she reacted very badly to it, moving her head in a wierd twiching way. I patted her a bit until she calmed down, and after that she seemed okay for a few more hours. Late 11PM she began to make wierd noises, breath irregularly and twitch in a way that scared me, so I went upstairs to call for help from the family but no one was disposable. When I came back I saw the kitten take her last breath and her eyes lose all her color. She deficated after that (which is what animals or people do when they die), and I realizing this, in a panic took the Kitten out of the basket and ran to the oldest member of my household. This person had confirmed that she had died. Just to be sure I shined her eyes with a flashlight and her eyes had lost all of her color, and would just reflect light back. Her eyes looked completly black without the flashlights light. She no longer had a heart breat and she was no longer breathing, so with all of these factors we assumed that she did indeed died, and then procceded to bury her. We called the Vet to let him know, and as in a way to reassure me, told me that even if we had gone to him ASAP it would have not changed anything. I want to confirm if what he is saying is true. I also would like to know what killed her. Was it just a matter of time that she would die from that shock, or the fact that she was paralized? Was it the water I gave her, or maybe she died because of something I am not taking into account? Maybe something had ruptured in her body that the vet might have not noticed? If I had skipped taking her to a vet and just taken her to emergency, would that have saved her? This has been the most traumatic experience for me, since, frankly, I watched her as she slowly deteriated in health for the whole 13 hours she lived after the accident. She was very young, a month and a half old kitten whom was very lively, kind, gentle, and playful. I can't help but blame myself for the situation, and frankly I don't know what to do with myself. I can't help but miss the small Kitten that would sleep on my chest and on my pillow near my head, and I can't help but ask myself how she would look like if she had not had this accident and had grown up. I ask this question for closure, I want to know what went wrong and if there was anything I could have done at the time of crisis. Her name was Navi.