i have bi-polar disorder AND chiari - both of these cause behavior changes, obviously
recently i got into an argument with my husband, and i completely changed - i was screaming at him (yelling is something i know i do in a manic rage, unfortunately, but not this level of screaming), and then i started hitting him (something i have NEVER done) and i said some really nasty things to him, to the point where he told me he will never look at me the same and called me a monster
i really don't remember the fight much - i remember screaming and wanting to take a swing at him, and him calling me a monster - the rest i was told about by him after i had calmed down and was rational again
i don't know what to do, what happened, or how to prevent it from happening again - i tried to talk to my therapist about it, and her entire spiel was how to be mind-full of everything and practice my breathing techniques when i'm angry - that doesn't work when i'm manic, and especially didn't work when what the hell ever happened on that night
i'm lost as to what i should do - my regular dr isn't even taking appointments now, my therapist is brushing me off on this, and my psychiatrist "only handles the random biological stuff" and everything else is what my therapist is for
any advise would be appreciated - either on how to handle this myself, or how to tell off my doctors