About my dog

[SassyLassie]

I know this is not Complementary related, but, I consider you all here my friends and I just wanted to share with you that I had to have my beloved Su-Lin (my dog) euthanized today. Oh how I hurt, we had her 14 years, she was wonderful and the pain is horrible. I know dad is taking it hard. I took her to the vet just three hours ago, he was great and so compassionate.

I am trying to quiet my pulse and blood pressure down, but, not doing too well. Please keep me in your thoughts.
Thanks

[stella5349]

I couldn't even read your entire story above. I know exactly what you went/are going through.

I still am not over my personal things on our dog we put down 3 years ago.

My husband rushed out and got another one very similiar to our Maggie - but I think it was way too soon for me.

I still miss her terribly - she was so strong and loving to me. It' s silly - but she was my little rock here at home after a hard day. Almost 15 years - It ws like "I" grew up with her.

Take care and I'll be thinking of you.

[Paxiled]

This is good.  If you don't grieve now, it will be worse later.  Let it out.

[SassyLassie]

Well, this morning, it was horrible. At first, I was Ok, then, when I got up it felt so quiet, I saw the lovely sunshine, but, it was dark in my heart. I remember yesterday when she was outside and walking around, and I also remembered when she was able to walk well and run, we used to sit on the porch together. All kinds of memories flooded through my mind, of course, the tears started. You see, in September, I think she had either a stroke or a vestibular disorder hit. All of a sudden, she started walking in circles, would fall to the side and tilt her head to the side. Well, the circle walking stopped, but from then on, her sweet head was tilted and her back legs would give out, the back got worse and worse and when the ice and snow it, sometimes she would fall flat like that picture of Bambi. I or dad would have to go out and lift her. She also had a hard time getting up the outside stairs to come in, she would sometimes fall. Inside, was not much better, and the last few weeks, whenever she was in the kitchen on the linoleum floor, her legs would give out from under her, she could not get up and she would sometimes yelp and scream. It was horrible. And last, she lost control of her bowels, they would just come out, even inside, and she was so very well housebroken. I think what helped to keep her going as long as she did was this drug called "Dexamethasone" it helped her eat and maybe not hurt too badly.

Yesterday morning, however, I knew the inevitable had arrived, dad wanted me to take her too. So, I called the only vet I trust, which in the town where I used to live, about 70 miles from here, he was so very kind, he first gave her a shot that more or less put her in a very deep coma, then he let me sit with her and pet her for awhile, then a half hour later, he picked her up, put her on the table and gave her the shot that was to take her to heaven. I went over to her and as he was administering it, kissed her on the nose and said "cross the bridge my love." I was hurting so badly. The vet then took his stethoscope to listen to her heart, about 30 seconds later, he removed it and said "she is gone now at peace" I just told him thanks so much for your wonderful kindness and concern. I also thanked the receptionists for their concern and I gave them her all bags of food and cans of food plus her leash and collar. They said they would donate them to the Humane center or to a client that could not afford these things. They are a wonderful clinic. I am glad I was not alone, I had the Lord with me, and also my boy friend, he was trying not to cry, but he was, I handled it better, but, when I got outside the office, I lost it and have been that way since. Right now, it is 11:43 and at this time, I was sitting with her but she was already in the coma. She officially passed at 11:55.  It is a sad day, nothing seems normal. No, I could not bring her home, we had no place to bury her, and with my dad only on social security and me not working, we could not afford the cremation. I have lots of her pictures though and she is in my heart.

Oh yes, she was mom's dog, so it is like mom has just died again too. Mom died 4 years ago this past week, the 14th and her funeral service was on April 23, the same day now that Su-Lin left us. So, I have a double hurt, but, so does dad, I know he is hurting deeply too.

Well, thanks for letting me talk. I think I will do a few things and see if I can get to feeling a wee bit better. God bless.

Bionicamn, I used to have a Siamese, they are marvelous kitties, almost like a dog. Mine fetched too, and he truly thought he was "human" Right now, I have a Siamese mix and a yellow tabby. I love them, but, I am missing my pup.

HeHe, your secret is safe with me. :)

[SassyLassie]

Thanks everyone for your comments. I just cannot seem to stop crying, I think I am OK, then bingo, I start in again. I am just devastated. It really did not hit me hard until a few hours ago. I think one thing that makes this death even harder is she was my mom's dog, and now, I feel like I mom has died again. Time is a healer, and I am sure in time, I will be OK, but right now, it is hard to believe. Thanks for being here for me. You are all the bestest.

[laura1967]

My heart goes out to you and your family. One of my greatest passions in life is animals, especially dogs. I have worked with dogs for years.....they are amazing creatures. Their spirits are truly amazing and I truly believe that God brings their spirits back up to him. Why else would he make such amazing companions?
So try to think about your beloved pet waiting for you some day to arrive and love and play again.  Hugs!

[twehner5]

I'm so glad I checked out the forum before going to bed...

I'm so, so sorry for your loss.  Pets are VERY dear members of our families and it is right to grieve for them.  I feel so helpless as I don't know what else to say...

Please know I care very much and will be thinking about you and your dad.  I'm glad you have each other during this time of loss.  Take care.

[margypops]

I am so sorry it really hurts when you loose a pet doesnt it I am not good at grieving ,my mom always said you have to get another as soon as you feel you can, I didnt go by her advice and havent had a dog for 15 years I really miss their company , it may be time to get one that needs me, a cat has come by needed a home but my husband doesnt like cats says hes allergic ,she is very predatory which isnt too nice I guess I am a dog person. Hope you feel a bit easier soon, all the bestxx

[PlateletGal]

Oh gosh... I am so sorry for your great loss. I wish I could find better words to comfort you during this difficult time, but if you need to chat, send me a PM.

I also have a 14 year old dog.. my very first dog and I've had him since he was a puppy. If I even think about losing him, I end up in tears. I can relate..

HUGS,

~PlateletGal