Yeah, it has for me too, but I'm not sure for the same reasons. I guess we all have our own reaction to things. I was pretty isolated before covid due to getting injured in too many places, so I'm not sure covid altered that for me. I sleep in the day, or try to, and so I'm not really up when others are anyway. But I do have a wife, sort of, as we don't spend a lot of time together and we are quite different. It's what happens when you marry later in life, I think, you do it for different reasons than young people do. But for me, I think the real downer is what covid has shown us about ourselves and our gov't. If you grew up idealistic, this is a bad time to be alive. I get you on the mask thing, but I don't think I look so closely, I just can't believe Americans are so self-centered that so many of them can't bear wearing one even if it means helping others. So that's where it has increased my depression, it is the revelation of how Americans really seem to be. It didn't turn out how I thought it would coming from where I came from and when I grew up. I would say, do you go out and exercise? Work in the yard? Are you able to do that? Because outdoors you can time your exercise to where you don't have to wear a mask and social distancing is easy, such as not going out until it's dark out or going to big parks where there's lots of space and it's pretty. It gives a little bit of normalcy to everything. But I don't think most people are happy right now. It's something we have to get through, not something we want to be doing. I don't have an answer for you or for me other than to suggest finding things to do that do feel kind of normal. As for your isolation, if I recall you recently freed yourself from a really bad relationship but you're now in covid and that makes it hard to find another. As Americans, we have had a pretty easy life in general for a long time now, but for many people life has never been easy and throughout history life has always been hard. At some point in all our lives, there will be very very hard times. This is one of them. It's no fun having to live through one of these periods, but they do eventually either go away or people get used to them and a new normal. Time is your ally. In the meantime, learn all you can from the internet, such as meditation or new forms of exercise and the like. This is easy to say, and it isn't how I'm living, but there was a time when I would have. Maybe you can as well. And know that medication seldom makes it all go away. At best it just makes it more tolerable for most of us. Some get tremendous results, but most of us don't, so we have to keep trying therapy to get over it. This is also something you can do online. Just keep telling yourself time tends to fix a lot of things if you can just get past the present. Peace.
Hi dear, it has for me too. Yes I think it is the fear and the isolation. Do you have hobbies? I suppose being active helps a lot too. I putter around the kitchen a lot. I also do a little bit of gardening. And physical exercises - even just simple calisthenics or something.
We are getting ready to lock down more here. We've got a curfew now and our school is closed for a couple of days. I handle it, it seems, by making food for my family. lol Whew, I'm like plotting what to get and where and when, making it and cleaning it up like 24/7. But my son is depressed during all of this. So, I hope we don't fully lock down. I don't want to add to his depression by isolating him any more. His mental health is just too fragile. He definitely needs the connection of being in school.
Hopefully, stormpower, you can change that living location sooner rather than later. And being alone is far better than being with a bad man!
I agree that there are online things to do right now, sweetie. It's hard though and I'm sorry you are feeling so alone. hugs