Any time you feel suicidal, yeah, you're depressed. If what you say here is true, your life has been eventful, to say the least. Any time all you do is sit by yourself watching TV and not doing anything, yeah, you're probably depressed. Any time you have no friends at all, unless you've recently moved far away from them, yeah, you're probably depressed. Have you ever sought professional help for any of the stuff you've gone through or are going through?