For a lot of people, cutting is a quick and effective. However, you don't want to wear the pain you're going through now for the rest of your life with scars. You should speak to your psychiatrist about this as soon as you can. In the meantime, maybe you can try wearing a rubber band around you wrist and snap it when you feel like cutting. I did this when I was trying to get myself to stop obsessing over negative thoughts. It hurt like hell.. but no scarring. Just some nasty welts. I used it for different reasons than you would be using it for.. but it certainly got me to stop obsessing.
All the best..
I understand you saying that it makings you feel better...When I did it it was like a relief...I think I understand it as...that cutting is something we have control over....if nothing least in our lives we feel the cutting is the only thing that makes sense....
Realizing what you have control...other things can help with the cutting and also guide relaxation, also tracking when you cut and when you don't...figuring out what your triggers are....can help.
I was wondering, why does it feel so much better to cut? I don't know why I even do it. Well, sometimes I do. But, now I am craving it, and I can't quite explain why; everything is going fine. I just know I'll regret it later, because I always do. But, cutting makes perfect sense to me now. I don't want to **** myself up any more than I already have in 14 years, but I really want to cut. I'm gonna try not to. Wish me luck.
I'm fourteen, and I've been self-harming for 3 or 4 years... maybe even longer. I began in Elementary, just pine needles and pins. I've stopped now. For the most part. Most of my friends are experiencing the same difficulties, and I know how you feel. Hang in there, and know you aren't alone.
It does make sense to write how you are feeling but as that's self harm its directly of concern. I would reccomend speaking to your psychiatrist as soon as possible so they can follow up on this with some specific ideas that they could suggest.