Hope things get better soon. It seems like a rough time for a lot of people as of late.
I've had severe depressive and anxiety dissorder for 17 years, and I remember even just 5 years ago, I never really heard too much talk about it. Now it seems as so many people are becoming depressed. I hear about it all the time now on the TV, the radio, it really has become quite an epidemic, actually maybe even a pandemic.
I remember not long ago when taking an Antidepressant medication was "hush hush and considerd weird." My God, now it seems every one is on them! I go to a neighbors party the other day and I hear people talking about Psycotropic medications like they are almost "in style or the in thing."
Maybe we all just built our house of cards too high. I have a woderful shiny house of cards, but it is only a couple paychecks away from a complete collaps. My income is the toothpicks by which this shiny house of cards is built on. One small puff of wind could send it all to the ground. Perhaps I am the maker of my own anxiety and depression for having built such a large card house on such fragile toothpicks.
I guess we have become a nation of Depressed people. So I can honestly say your not alone.
I have been where you are. If you have anyone, friend or family who you can call on to help you sort through this, it would be a lifesaver. I had a therapist once that did help me by helping me prioritize and get the phone calling done. She actually looked up phone numbers, then called, getting on the line who I needed to talk to. There are people out there who care. Tell your Drs. what help you need. Tell them if something isn't working.
Don't be afraid of asking for help. I know it's hard. Also, and this may seem obvious, if you take pain meds, then start doing something that makes the pain worse, they won't help. Sorry for how that sounds. It seems like you need to get on the sidelines for a while, as much as possible. Rest more than you do. Drink water, green tea, things that can help your body flush those bad chemicals.
thanks for the comments. with the new tdoc, i don't yet trust her, or even really like her. my medical situation isn't good as i'm a veteran and have to use the VA facilities. i don't have a pdoc assigned yet since switching tdocs....it's a mess.
went to see regular doc today at the VA and it was a joke. i'm going to go ahead and try to get seen in the "real world" by a "real" doc since the other drivers insurance must pay for it....all the VA doc did was give me more meds and say come back in 3 months.
i'm trying to rest as much as possible, but i'm a single parent. i have no family that lives anywhere near here. things were a mess before the wreck and now it's just crazy. i really need to talk to my former tdoc because she knows how to calm me down...but she isn't "allowed" to talk to me (per the VA) becuase she was promoted to a position where she doesn't treat pts anymore...she can really get these awful thoughts out of my head whereas all the new tdoc wants to do is shove me in the hospital. and a VA hospital is a truly, truly horrid place for a female vet.
the whole thing is just imploding
i tried. i e-mailed my former tdoc because all of this is just too much to take. she e-mailed me back only to tell me that under no circumstances can she talk to me about my mental health issues anymore!!!!
i'm suicidal, begging for her help and she just blows me off saying that she will get into legal trouble if she talks to me. wtf.
the VA system never ceases to amaze me. why do i bother.