Depression and wedding shower

[Libuse]

I so need help!!!! I have to go to the wedding shower for my only daughter this afternoon and I am soooo depressed I would rather crawl in a hole and stay there! I can't ruin my daughter's happy day, so I have to go, but how am I going to manage with so many people around I am also anxious! It feels horrible, don't know what to do! My heart is in my throat and threatens to jump out, my legs are weak and I have weight sitting on my heart!

[Hensley258]

Isn't it strange that very often the thought of having to do something is much worse than doing it.

Sounds like your Anxiety was just really kicking. I can understand exactly how you felt. When that Anxiety engine starts going, it can be like a run away freight train.

[el_dave]

Well, that looked like a "that wasn't so bad" to me! Outstanding, ma'am. I sure hope you have a nice night.. sleep well.

-El Dave

[Libuse]

Thanks for your reply! I walked around whole morning in utter depression, but then I showered, made my hair, dressed up, took half of 0.5 Ativan and went to the shower. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself if I didn't go. Actually it was nice, my voice was dead give away of depression, but I blamed it on cold. I ended up having pretty good time and enjoyed myself. I am glad that I was able to overcome my mood. I do not normally like to take Ativan, but I had to. Thanks for being understanding. Now in a month the wedding. I just strated taking Citalopram, hope that by that time it will help some. I took it two years ago and was Ok for two years after.

[fuzzy882]

This sure brings back the memories .
Four year's ago I was in the same spot as you are now,  My daughter's baby shower.  I was so sick at that time and I just couldnt even think of how I was going to do it.  She was so sad to think that I may not be there. I had myself in such a turmoil about the whole thing.  70 women were invited and I had to greet them all.  Well, somehow I managed to go and I have to say that, that day was one of the best day's of my life.  I was so glad I went.  I hope that you too will report back and are able to say that also.  

Waiting to see how it went...

Fuzzy  

[el_dave]

You can do it, you sure can. Years of experience, just ride the wave, wait, it'll be done with shortly. Hopefully when it starts you'll find ways to enjoy it. I mean, if you can't get out of it, may as well try to just accept that and "chill out" as the young folks would say. anyway, I'm hoping that when it's all done with, in a short time, you'll say, "now that wasn't so bad!" Hope so, anyway.