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Depression from hydocodone
God will someone please tell me why i feel like an emotional flatline and i why i can't get our of bed to do anything...i have never been more depressed in all my life and i am so sad that i can't even get up to take my kids for a walk...Its been three weeks already and I have not even laughed once..I don't think that this is all because of the stress in my life caus some days I really miss my pills...they made me feel good and i think not having them is making me depressed..Is anyone else struggling with this too? How long before your body gets its own chemicals back again? I am so lost and i hate feeling this way.....I also posted in the wrong section before so I am deleting...thanks guys..please guys don't tell me to go on an AD because they do not agree with me....there has got to be better ways to fight depression....
Wow, someone who almost has the exact same problem as me. I didn't read all of the posts, but I started taking Norco due to major depression disorder and a few anxiety disorders, as well as having been on 30 - 40 different medications that did absolutely nothing. Taking the Norco didn't make my depression any worse when I quit ( I probably averaged 100mg a day for close to a year ). And that getting out of bed and trying to do anything aside from going back to my bed after maybe an hour after getting up, I think it's killing me on the inside.
Oh, I completely understand why you want your pills back. I'm at the point where I'd rather take vicodin everyday and be able to function. To me, it's way better than the alternative.
P.S. - I know some people will tell me how bad taking the vicodin would be, but I've already lost my high school years and probably my dream of being a pro baseball player to this. Enough is enough.
Oh, I completely understand why you want your pills back. I'm at the point where I'd rather take vicodin everyday and be able to function. To me, it's way better than the alternative.
P.S. - I know some people will tell me how bad taking the vicodin would be, but I've already lost my high school years and probably my dream of being a pro baseball player to this. Enough is enough.
I wanted to post this twice so that everyone that helped me see its. Just wanted to let you all know that i am alive and i am currently tapering off valium..i crossed over on March first to 3.5 mg and I am slowing tapering using milk..i am down to 2.91 mg today....this has been so hard for me guys as you all know...i should have never been given benzos..all this time the anxiety and panic was from stopping the lortab too quick but now its too late to go back....still 103 days clean form lortab!! woohoo...i have been very sick with this taper....i thought lortab was bad but this is truly unreal...I had to send my kids to las Vegas with my sister until i am well...i cannot wait till this is over...i just want my life back...thank you for all your support these months..i knew something was not right .....I wish i would have did this sooner..never thought a short tern round of benzos could do this but beleive me they can...and especially with all the people i have met on this hellish journey, i am sure of it!!Dont' ever start them...I will never, ever take another pill again once this is over...love you all, Lisa
well its been 24 days guys since i quit lortab and nicotine gum and i feel like absolute crap...the depression is the worst along with the anxiety...i wish i could say i felt better but not yet....i am hoping that day comes very soon...this morning i felt very empty like something was missing...very strange...when did you guys start to see the light..i was never depressed before..i still have some indigestion..i chewed nicotine for 4 years and when i googled it..they said its worse than quitting opiates and all the withdrawals are the same...some people feel crappy after three months even..so i guess i did a number on myself stopping both at once...this ***** so bad..i dont even want to get out of bed but i am so sick of being in bed...when will it end..i feel so bad for my kids and my boyfriend...
Hey, I hope this helps. I saw a pain management doc for the first time yesterday. He seemed thrilled I got off of oxy on my own. He says there are a lot of changes with how that stuff is prescribed now... anyway, one of the most profound things he said was that I may feel like I'm in WDs for 2-3 months. I'm sure that's not new news on the site, but he said if very confidently and instead of looking at it negatively, I thought about trying to see it positively like everyone tell us - IT WILL GET BETTER and THERE IS STILL TIME TO HEAL. So Mommy and I and Kuckma and Tired ofoxy and everyone else still have time to get better.
Bad day today, but at least it's over and I can be in pain and fatigued at home :) David
Bad day today, but at least it's over and I can be in pain and fatigued at home :) David
WOW oh and i have not even mentioned that i stopped chewing nicotine at the same time i quit the pills...i was reading about it anf the withdrawls are the same or worse than opiate withdrawll......now it all makes perfect sense....great ..i m going to be like this for a long time...the anxiety is horrible...i was reading about people in nicotine withdrawls and it is the anxiety that gets them....same as me..unreal..i feel like crap and i shake everyday...now i know why
Hi
I had nausea for along time threw up once and it was all water yuk !!
I couldn't eat properly for ages and lost loads of weight.
You are right the sickness is due to withdrawal alot of people have that,
I was mainly plagued by symptoms of IBS in the morning and still suffer
with it but not as much as it was thank god.
These evil tablets are fat soluable and take along time to come out of your
system.
Take care
Love
Lorraine xx
I had nausea for along time threw up once and it was all water yuk !!
I couldn't eat properly for ages and lost loads of weight.
You are right the sickness is due to withdrawal alot of people have that,
I was mainly plagued by symptoms of IBS in the morning and still suffer
with it but not as much as it was thank god.
These evil tablets are fat soluable and take along time to come out of your
system.
Take care
Love
Lorraine xx
Wow so i woke up this morning throwing my guts up and i am so weak...its been 23 days already...what would make me throw up? I wake up early cause i was hungry and I ate a banana and drank some milk and then a few minutes later i had some cereal and i could not keep it down...Why am i puking again? Is that poision still in my body or could it be the motrin i took yesterday?
Mommyoffive - there is a great audio book on itunes called "When the Darkness Will Not Life" by John Piper. I don't know if you do itunes or MP3's, but it's a short book (about an hour and 20 mins) and it is filled with some great info/hope. Look it up if you can... I'm praying for you.
David
David
Hi
So sorry to hear your suffering, it's obvious you are going through withdrawal, i am going through it too coming off effexor. I was so ill i couldn't get out of bed but mine was
physical at first now it's effecting me emotionally symptoms change. I can relate to anxiety does your mind race ? I don't know wether symptoms are similar with
hydrocodine but what happens with anti-depressants is they switch off adrenaline whilst you are on them and when you stop your body goes awol and over produces it. This leads to anxiety, palpitaions and panic attacks. I am on beta blocker propananol 40 mg's in the morning and clonidine 100 mg's of a night they give this to people coming off drink and drugs.
Hormones make symptoms worse which is why you are feeling worse now, keep thinking you are not going mad and you won't. The withdrawal is evil as it mimic's anxiety and depression I should know. But remember you will improve you will come through this and as you get better symptoms will come and go. I depends on how long you were on the tablets and at what strength everyone is individual.
Take care
Love
Lorraine xx
So sorry to hear your suffering, it's obvious you are going through withdrawal, i am going through it too coming off effexor. I was so ill i couldn't get out of bed but mine was
physical at first now it's effecting me emotionally symptoms change. I can relate to anxiety does your mind race ? I don't know wether symptoms are similar with
hydrocodine but what happens with anti-depressants is they switch off adrenaline whilst you are on them and when you stop your body goes awol and over produces it. This leads to anxiety, palpitaions and panic attacks. I am on beta blocker propananol 40 mg's in the morning and clonidine 100 mg's of a night they give this to people coming off drink and drugs.
Hormones make symptoms worse which is why you are feeling worse now, keep thinking you are not going mad and you won't. The withdrawal is evil as it mimic's anxiety and depression I should know. But remember you will improve you will come through this and as you get better symptoms will come and go. I depends on how long you were on the tablets and at what strength everyone is individual.
Take care
Love
Lorraine xx
I am so depressed I can't move my *** for nothing...and i just got my period and i can't stop crying...wow my hormones are so fudged up
You know i could actually deal with the withdrawl sysmptoms but its the anxiety that kicked my ***...and i am so damn tired and scared of having a panic attack that it stops me from doing everything...i am just coming down from a panic attack thanks to my beautiful son...who also used to suffer from these wretched things when he was in third grade.....they started for him because a stupid pastor from a fake church that his dad took him too told him that he would burn in hell if he ever sinned..jerk..i almost beat thecrap outta that guy...anyhow he went though this for 1 year...if was awful..now i think maybe it is genetic...i feel so bad...i dont want to trigger his attacks again after 5 years so he has been at his dads..i told them i was sick..this is so hard
Are you able to exercise at all? You have to force yourself. I would dismiss the notion of exercise while WDing over and over, and then finally I would give in to myself to get myself to stop bugging myself! I feel like 95% of the time it helped tremendously. Remember, your body can produce those "feel good endorphins," but you gotta help it. I agree that (it seems) like you dismiss the Klonopin, or even the natural things like the Valerian Root, probably because you have doubt and fear. You gotta give some of these things a chance.
Walking, lost of liquids, and whatever else you need to get healthy and not go back to the pills that got you here. Anything that makes you feel this bad coming off of it, IS NOT worth being on or going back on.
Please take everything with an upbeat encouraging tone. I know it's hard to read tone in writing, but I'm so pulling for you. You need peace and rest. They are both out there. I promise.
Walking, lost of liquids, and whatever else you need to get healthy and not go back to the pills that got you here. Anything that makes you feel this bad coming off of it, IS NOT worth being on or going back on.
Please take everything with an upbeat encouraging tone. I know it's hard to read tone in writing, but I'm so pulling for you. You need peace and rest. They are both out there. I promise.
You say you used to be very happy before the pills. I say the same thing. But really was I? Yes I would laugh and have a good time but SOMETHING started me on the pills. And it was nOt for pain. They fixed a lot of issues with me i think. Tiredness, motivation, they warmed my body up like I just took a blanket out of the dryer and wrapped myself in it when I took them. And the thing is we CHANGE as humans. Some of us more than others. And the pills change our brain chemistry as well. And usually for about 90-180 days. So the happy good OLD days may be over. Now you have to work for good NEW days. But I don't think it will ever be the same for any of us really. Not once the seal has been broken so to say. Once we crossed that line now we have that monkey on our backs forever. That's one thing that's different. I don't pretend to know your case but for the most part it's the same I think. I know where you are at with your mind right now. And I don't like AD either. A few of them really tripped me out BAD. But I'll tell you that celexa worked for me on a low dose. It's very mild you really don't even know you took it. If not that then maybe naturally like taking 5HTP. That really helped me as well. It's a combination of the brain damage (that's really what it is) from the pills, depression because we will not have that "crutch" in our lives anymore, no more warm fuzzy blanket, like our best friend died or something so we are grieving HEAVY about that, and our body's systems still being all jacked up. That is why you are feeling this way. And i guess like all greiving it just takes time to heal. Right now is going to be critical for you. These next 2 months and really the next DAYS will be critical. You are walking right up to the edge of the cliff, now you have to decide if you are going to jump off climb down slowly. If you jump off and pop a pill you will get down the cliff quickly but you will not like how you look and feel when you land. If you climb down slowly it takes A LONG time and a lot of work. But when you get to the bottom you will be strong and healthy
Might be that you're not depressed. You may be mourning the loss of your best friend Mr. Hydrocodone. I remember when I was two or three weeks into a withdrawal I spent a full week or better thinking how I would never get to see or use pills again and I was so saddened by that. I thought about them all day everyday, just really missing having them in my life. I thought I was having intense cravings but in hindsight it was just intense grief. This phase will pass for you too. If you're still feeling this way a month from now (not likely) then you really should consult with your doctor.
I've noticed that you're quick to dismiss the notion of using anti-depressants because they make you feel a little off. Don't you think you're feeling a little off now?
They make a variety of anti-depressants and there may be one you've yet to find that will restore mental balance for you. If you could fix yourself you wouldn't be here would you? You can't complain about your situation and then do nothing about it. Getting clean and getting your life back after addiction is a proactive endeavor so you're going to have to get up and do something about it.
When everyone says to just wait and give it time, it's gets better a little bit everyday they don't mean to just sit down and wait. They mean give it time as in don't go back to using until you've given it a chance. Force yourself to get up and move around.
Your recovery is 10% support and encouragement and 90% effort on you part not the other way around.
I've noticed that you're quick to dismiss the notion of using anti-depressants because they make you feel a little off. Don't you think you're feeling a little off now?
They make a variety of anti-depressants and there may be one you've yet to find that will restore mental balance for you. If you could fix yourself you wouldn't be here would you? You can't complain about your situation and then do nothing about it. Getting clean and getting your life back after addiction is a proactive endeavor so you're going to have to get up and do something about it.
When everyone says to just wait and give it time, it's gets better a little bit everyday they don't mean to just sit down and wait. They mean give it time as in don't go back to using until you've given it a chance. Force yourself to get up and move around.
Your recovery is 10% support and encouragement and 90% effort on you part not the other way around.
sometimes we have to FORCE ourdelves to do things! If all we do is lay in bed our bodies wont have the energy to get up. If we force our bodies, you will be suprised. make your self get up and go for a walk. get that blood pumping and enjoy your life!!! Good luck. I will continue to pray for you.
Actually i have never been one to struggle with depression...i was a really happy girl before these damn pills
you may have had underlineing depression problems before this and the pills may have masked them or the pills really messed with your hormones/enzymes. either case 3 weeks in you shoukld start feeling somewhat better. i would schedule a appointment with your doc and explain tohim your situation. depression meds may be an option. i will be praying for you
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