Does anyone on here really care how I feel?

[Nintendo_Gamer]

I have been diagnosed with Major Depression and I have Asperger's Syndrome with Severe Social phobia. I posted this in the Asperger's forum, but I really feel horrible, and I was wondering if anyone cares at all about how I feel. I know this is long, but if you decide to take the time to read it, I would appreciate it. Thanks! :)

I have extreme social phobia, and try to avoid all social contact with people. Just saying Hi to someone terrifies me, but I don't want to be rude if someone speaks to me. I communicate better through the computer keyboard than I do in person. I'm terrified of social interactions on the telephone and avoid answering it at all costs. Instead I let the answering machine take the call, or let my mom get it. I feel very depressed and feel like a total failure. I have no friends, and I stay "locked up" in my room pretty much all day. Only coming out when I need to get something, eat, etc.

I graduated from high school a year early and graduated from a 2 yr college with a 4.0 GPA, but I still feel like a total failure. I'm scared if anyone who knows me, other than my family, finds out I have Asperger's they won't want anything to do with me. I'm on disability due to all of my problems, and it doesn't help my confidence any. I wish I could work and spend time with others, but what's the point? I feel like I can't do anything right, and I'm a total idiot. I know that's not true, but that's absolutely how I feel.

Being bullied pretty much everyday of school since I was younger didn't help anything either. I really can't trust anyone, and I feel like pretty much everyone, EXCEPT my family and the Dear Lord God, hate me. I wish I wouldn't feel like this, and I would know how to interact with people without fear like everyone else does, that I see on the streets walking by every day. Laughing and having fun, Unlike me. :'(

[greenpc]

Wow, your story really touched me!!! I truly feel for what you are going through. I think it's important to understand what you have done to try and get to where you want to be e.g seeing a counselor etc... That way we could try give you advice to make you happier :)

[Bubulous]

Of course you will likely find a lot of compassion here...
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