Thank u for your reply I've been to the doctors and they have given me sertline I feel like a nervous reck I can't even bring myself to go to the shops for stuff until the last minute, I feel so **** until night time when my brain says u can do this extra my head is frequently talking to me or drifting out of reality to passed memories that makes me see I've always been this way in some sense it's terrible I just wanna be normal n enjoy something I feel like everything is pointless, everyday is a struggle evrything is piling up around me
I went away this weekend for some peace with my other half but evrything was so hard walking round the shops I don't know what to do with myself I feel so awkward n feel like I've tried to spend money to treat myself to something that doesn't help
All I can think is more stuff to sort look after wash
I surprised my other half is still with me I don't talk **** all as nothing comes to mind to say it's like my brain has stopped working, my mind just talks n I'm not in this world in sick of this
These are all symptoms of depression. Many of us go through the memory problem thing. It's so frustrating! It sounds like you may have some anxiety going on too.
Have you ever been in counseling or tried medication? If not, I highly recommend you see a therapist. It really can do wonders to help your depression.
We're always here to listen and help anyway we can. We do understand what you're going through because most of us here on this forum also have depression.