Has she tried going to a therapist to talk to someone like weekly? They could help her a lot and also I'm not sure how active she already is but exercise is shown to be just as effective of an anti-depressant as taking anti-depressants and plus exercise won't give her these side effects. Maybe joining a running club or maybe starting a sport like netball or something?
I hope you and her get through this.
Hi Lucas,
You are not responsible for her being Happy. We all have to take a deep look at ourselves and find the happiness for ourselves.
In my Opinion only, you are banging your head against the wall, and accepting the blame for her behavior. It's not YOU it is She who needs a diagnosis from a Psychiatrist.
However I see how much you love her, do you think you are an enabler??? Well you cannot be making excuses for others and taking all the blame when it's her responsibility.
I would say until she finds out what is causing this rage and anger......you are outta there.
I do not have any idea what her mental condition is , that is for the professional. IMO she is going to look for every excuse in the book to justify her actions.
You leaving may make her take a real good look at herself and realize she is losing you if she does not find out her mental condition, seek out the right diagnose and then medication that might allow her to Her reset button.
Just saying.... get on with you life and finding your happiness If this is the right relationship it will survive.
Good Luck, Lucas and wishing you your own contentment.
May Trix
Your girlfriend is so lucky to have you as a boyfriend who is so caring and devoted to her in spite of her depression and extreme moods and also now it is affecting you. It sounds like the doctor she is seeing is not working out for her and needs to be seen by a better doctor. I want to tell you to break up with her because she is now affecting you emotionally which is not good but I don't know if that is the right answer. That is up to you. Sounds like you love her so much that you are willing to put up with whatever happens so long as she gets better. Which is commendable on your part. These medications are having an awful effect on her which doesn't sound right. I have major depression disorder and anxiety and have been put on most of the antidepressants there are plus 30 ECTs which have not worked for me at all. I started taking caffeine pills and drinking strong coffee when I was severely depressed and noticed a difference in my mood and energy level. I told my doctor this and so she put me on Ritalin and I am off antidepression meds and am on Clonazepam for my anxiety. I walk a tightrope with my depression and anxiety when I take Ritalin because it can trigger an anxiety attack so that's when I stop taking it for a day or so or cut back.
I was misdiagnosed and told that I was bipolar and was put on Lithium which gave me rage of which I have never had to the point that I felt like I wanted to hurt someone. So the next day I told my doc this and told him that I did not want to be on LIthium any longer. I am not bipolar but have major depressive disorder. Maybe your girlfriend has been misdiagnosed and that is why they are prescribing meds that are affecting her badly. Hope this helps. Don't lose hope.
So, I'm super practical when it comes to choosing life partners. You are exactly right that what is happening with your girlfriend and her mental health is taking a toll on you. When dating, I believe in this practicality and choosing someone that does not reflect mental health issues that require so much of us makes sense to me. We all want to be there for the one we love but you can't prop someone up forever and have any kind of functional life with them. YOU need to think of you here as well.
Understand that taking on the responsibility for someone else's mental health is a battle you will not win. Unless she shows that she is going to address her mental health concerns HERSELF and takes strong and immediate action, I can only suggest that you be practical here. I'm so sorry because I can tell how much you love and care for her. But love does not conquer all. You want a happy life for yourself and unless she takes steps to address things, this is just going to tear you apart. And often, mental health issues are a life long battle. Be practical. You deserve and easier and happier life.
If your girlfriend wasn't doing anything about this and was denying it, I'd tell you to bail, because you can't fix her. She has a disease and you're not a doctor. But in this case, she's at the very beginning of treatment. Drugs are not easy to take, hard to stop taking, and hard to find one that works. You also don't mention if she's seeing a talk therapist of any kind, trying to solve this. But there's a possibility from what you're describing that this isn't garden variety depression, it could be something more severe, such as bipolar disorder. You're describing some severe mood changes. For now, it might be the drugs causing this, because they definitely can cause it. When they do, it's the wrong drug for that person, and a different one needs to be tried. I'm assuming you're in Europe, as valdoxan, as far as I know, isn't approved for use in the US, and is a new type of antidepressant without a lot of data at this point. It works differently, as it's based on a theory that sleep problems cause depression and so it's working on the circadian rhythms rather than the other neurotransmitters most drugs target. It supposedly has fewer side effects because of this, but time usually tells us that, but given her reactions, it's another reason why I'm not sure her diagnosis is set yet. Has she seen a psychologist or psychiatrist to get a proper diagnosis, or is this being done with a general doc who isn't a specialist in doing this stuff? Also be careful about "taking her off" a drug -- these drugs have to be stopped carefully even when they're causing bad side effects because you can suffer withdrawal from stopping them -- the first drug she was on is notorious for this. So be careful here. And as far as pampering her, well, infantalizing her won't help her help herself, and if it is depression and not bipolar, she has to both want to get better and work hard to get better or she might not even with medication, which only tamps down the symptoms, they don't cure the problem. Treat her as you always have, love her as you always have, don't enable her or make her feel smaller or unable to care for herself even if she isn't right now. Help, don't control, or she will just feel more and more helpless. Eventually, she will find a medication that does work, and slowly she will feel better, but she won't be cured, so also try and get her properly diagnosed and in therapy if it is just a really bad bout of depression. Good luck.