Hi I'm ja, 26 from the Philippines. Lately I have been feeling so weird. At first I felt so tired of my daily routine and being single. Work, house usual friends then it became worse I felt so down and I feel as if there is no hope. I'm tired of hoping for a better future for someone to love me I'm tired of waiting for a change to happen. I'm feeling as If there's a big fear inside my heart that everything is going to end that this is it, there is nothing better to happen. I'm getting scared because I can't understand myself anymore. I'm not as strong and hopeful as before but I don't let anyone see it. I hide all this fear, the disappointment the loneliness because I don't want to feel like a loser. How can I bring back the happiness, the hope, the color of being alive? am I loosing my sanity am I still normal? am I the only one feeling this thing?.
I know you might not want to hear this, but try talking to a therapist. Just talking to someone who knows what you're going through and the best way to handle might help the hopelessness. They can also suggest prescription, if you need it.
You are not losing your sanity, and you are not alone. People are here for you, okay?