I want to die...

[WithoutNiallHoranTheresNo1D]

I really  want to die,i have the item I need, I don't want to even try anymore=( Im sick or life.

[CAADI1982]

Hey Babe! I was so surprised when I saw another Directioner here. I really would like to talk to you and maybe I could help you. Maybe knowing my story could be inspirational for you. But I would prefer to talk in private so if you want to follow me on Twitter and let me know that it is you! @CAADI1982

[Cindee56]

Hi I am an older woman with chronic pain and depression and very lonely   I understand feeling this way although I do not know your situation.

I would be happy to talk to you.  I ate calling those hotlines they just all an ambulance.  Please send me a PM or note.  I am here all the time although I don't post as often as I used to.

I am so sorry.  I am Cindee56.

[Crystal413]

I am so sorry I meant to type in daughter. Please accept my apology.

[Crystal413]

You have many options. Ambulance, a friend, a cab or your parents. I understand you don't want your parents to know but there support would really help you. You have nothing to be ashamed of. Reaching out and getting help is the best thing you can do for yourself. I would think your parents would want to know so they can help you. They would rather have a son here to love than no son at all. If you still don't want them to know then you do have other avenues to get to the hospital. No excuses, please go for help.
I will be thinking of you and wishing you wellness.

[WithoutNiallHoranTheresNo1D]

I don't know how I'd get there, i cant drive yet, & i wont tell my parents about this.

[nursegirl6572]

I agree with Crystal hon.  I would really recommend going to the ER, let them know what's been going on.  You need stabilized to get you to the point where at least the suicidal thoughts aren't so overwhelming and all consuming.  I know you still want to be here, at least deep down, because you're still posting, and I'm SO grateful for that!

PLEASE please please reach out for some help from a professional, okay?  We're here for you too.  I'm praying for you and thinking about you.

I'm so sorry you're struggling so much, it won't always be this bad, as hard as that is to imagine.

[Crystal413]

I'm sorry your feeling so bad. At this point I would strongly suggest you check yourself into the hospital (in patient). There, they can monitor you, give you med, talk to you and be there to help you.

[WithoutNiallHoranTheresNo1D]

I'm not doing any better, I am doing worse actually =(

[afraidofmyself]

Been there, done that, and still dealing with it. But the fact that you are trying to reach out is important. I also have those feelings daily! I dont have any friends, and my family and I dont get along...but i have a cat...and a brother and sister that are 14 and 13 and i couldnt imagine how they would feel if i did kill myself. I dont have much to live for, but if i can think of one person who might help me hold on for a day, that is half my battle. Keep in touch!!

[nursegirl6572]

I'm sorry you're suffering so much.  Please talk to us.  Have you tried getting help?  I really hope you reach out to someone for urgent help.

Here are some links to suicide hotlines.  They can help.  Please call one right away, or go to the ER:

http://suicidehotlines.com/

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Please post an update so we know you're okay.  You're in my thoughts and prayers.