I dont know why I feel this way, i feel withdrawn, introverted, lethargic, i want to sleep most of the time, i dont enjoy my boyfriend, i dont want to be around people, i feel angry and snap at people, i'm pessimistic even thou I got a job i wanted. Its strange... im gaining weight and down seem to care, but its not the first time i felt like this, i felt like this a lot of times, its doesnt go away no matter how much i try to ignore it, or distract myself. I'm afraid to tell anyone cause they'll just tell me to get over it,and i cant. I'm 21 and i feel helpless, its really hard to go on about life, i have frequent emotional swings and get sad about stupidest things. Naturally, i a balanced person, but i feel like a rug been pulled from under me, no matter what i get in life, i dont feel genuinely happy about it. Its hard to get excited, or emotional about good things, and feel indifferent about bad things kind of like doesn't really matter what happens. I have recurrent thoughts of worthlessness, and suicide thoughts pop in my head. I hate being weak, or showing weakness, and this stubborness has gotten me no help. I dont know what else to do, i dont have anyone to talk to about this, as people dismiss all my attempts and just call me lazy. Im really tired of not feeling good. Plz if you feel the same and you know how to get over it, or at least to confirm im not crazy.