Chazzhope,
Hi, my name is Angie. I really understand how you feel. I am not that much older than you and we are surprisingly alike. I am currently dating someone and just typing that is nice. You dont need to give up. Just because the jerks you go to school with dont know you, doesnt mean there isnt someone out there for you. You can tell me what your sexuslity is...I'm not going to judge you for it. Be proud that you told your parents. I also self-harm, but I am not brave enough to tell. Well, I havent for a long time, but i still feel like i want to sometimes. The next time you get the urge to, message me instead. I know you have the guts, so tell your mom and dad. Do they know you have tried to kill yourself? Let them know you feel bad and are not eating. Once, I considered not eating because I thought i was fat. Then, I thought that if i was going to live, I wanted to be healthy. There is a lot of great food out there that you are missing. And, really, smoking is gross. I love to sing so i could never do that. It is damaging your lungs so much. No matter how good you feel now, that will not be worth it in 40 ish years. Like I said, You can message me.
Hi
I can really see how it would be easy for you to not care about yourself, when it seems as if no one else cares about how you feel. I made a video for young people who are feeling sad confused or depressed.
I hope it helps you in some small way. Just go to this youtube I made. It might not help you at all but I do want you to know that I do care about the way you are feeling even though I dont know you personally. I believe every person should feel great about who they are and their life.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXTvH5XxuEI
Lots of love
Catt
You're going through all of this and your parents are saying it's a teenage thing? No, it's not. It really sounds like you have depression. If your parents won't listen to you see your school counselor. That's what they're there for, is to help the students.