Is there anything to diagnose about me? It may just be my personality but my feelings are shaped to the environment of people I'm near, I have low energy, no happiness when I'm home and near my family. When I'm with my friends I'm happy all the time, and generally I can control my emotions entirely, the rare times I am sad I can snap out of it and feel normal again. I can induce excitement, happiness, fear, sadness, but if someone came up to me and said I bought you a ticket to a theme park or anything I'm not appreciative at all, the only way I can show a sign of appreciation is by applying a perspective that I should be thankful (but it's not entirely in my control if I dont want to do it in the first place). But I could do anything I'd want to do most that day and be satisfied. If no theme park then the beach. If no beach then my friends, of no friends then media. If no media then I can sit and do nothing and I would be fine with that. I am not depressed as far as I am aware, I dont have any insecurities, I dont think I am the best at everything I do because I am mostly a logical thinker, on the inside I love people with all my heart but I have no will or desire to express it on the outside. I'm a little bit selfish because I used to have emotional issues with myself and was able to fix them, and i have too much pride to commit suicide but for some reason even though i refuse to do anything like that. On rare occasions when my family hurts me, i still get thoughts of suicide conflicting with my immediate consciousness that completely rejects that, it's not like something is talking to me. I'm not sure what it is, I think whatever in the brain is the cause for being dramatic that's definitely where it's coming from. Another thing is I dont believe there are any other situations going on in my life that would be causing this currently, as most events in life I understand are completely out of control leaving me with no guilt or regret when it comes to relatives passing away, I usually only feel empathetic emotions spread in the room, and when it stinks in weeks later when you realize you wont see them again. I can provide more details on my characteristics but I think I provided everything necessary to start out. Apologies that everything is a little vague, I have not taken much time to think about all of this.