hi. im 38 weeks pregnant and 19 years old. i gave up all my future plans to settle down with the love of my life and start a family when i found out i wad pregnant. i know most people tell me its my hormones but i cant do this anymore. i feel like im always alone, im constantly sad and find it next to impossible to smile. i have no tears left to cry, all of my emotions become anger. i told my doctor about this and after i did he had to take a phone call, when he came back into the room he forgot all about it and started doing more baby stuff. its so frusterating. my fiance is never here as he works long hours but he doesnt call or even text me just to check in, half the time i cant even get ahold of him when i need too. he works for his dad and they are able to use their phones. anyway, i find it impossible to forgive anyone for anything they've done. therefore its seperated me from my parents, which resulted in my sister. i dont talk to my fiances family because i know they dont think im good enough. Im constantly exsausted. beyond what sleep can fix. but i cant sleep even if i try because my mind is racing. i know a big part of it is because of the pregnancy but i cant do it. this is worse. ive been on anti depressants before and i get really bad panic attacks when i think too much. i purposely have to keep my mind entertained on other things because if i sit too long it gets too me. and to top everything off, now that im willing to admit that somethings wrong with the way i feel, it stresses me out even more. idk what to do. :( someone give me some advice. i need hope, ive never felt this depressed in my life.