It never stops!

[BLONDIE41785]

I can't sleep...it's 2am.telephone keeps ringing...its some who sexually attacked me a few days ago. i am not pressing charges because I don't want to put myself through that whole seen. I know how horrible it is because I was raped when I was 16. This time I was able to stop it before it went as far intercourse but it stirred up all the old feelings of when I was raped. Normally I would turn to my husband for help but he died 4 and half years ago at the age of 37. We met when we were 16, fell in love , had 3 wonderful kids , then one night it was over...he was dead. I see a Psych and I go to therapy. I also made an appointment for wed.to see a rape counselor. Wed. can't get here fast enough. I am very scared and paranoid. I already suffer from severe depression and chronic pain. Plus i'm always struggling financially. I receive SSI and with that money i have to take care of both me and my 20yr. old daughter. I really don't know what to do about this man who assaulted me. Please help, give me direction.
My son and his wife broke the order of protection I had  against both of them. They have been in jail almost 2 weeks because they can't make bail. In the process they lost custody of her son from a previous relationship. I know the first thing they are going to do when they hit the street is come after me because they are going to blame me about their son. What they don''t realize CPS was in the process of putting  him into foster care already. Saturday my landlord is going to put a peep hole in my door. That will make me feel a little safer. Orders of Protections are good things but let's face it a piece of paper isn't going to protect you if your out on the street.

Please help ....I need advice on how to protect myself from all three of them.  I can't be a prisoner in my own home.

[ParamedFlorena]

Tae Kwon Do classes, not being alone in the afternoons and unplug that phone/redirect all calls to cellphone and put it on silent ringing. People you want to talk to, you answer and people you don't want to talk to you don't talk to. That takes caller ID but most everyone has that.
I never pressed any charges on my attacker. It is starting to be years ago now. I regret, there was even someone who saw me walking home, but no... I didn't think I'd be strong enough to go to the police with it but is it right to let the molsters go on and on and on?

If you learn self-defence you KNOW you can defend yourself. Even that makes it easier.

Florena

[Snake_Plissken]

If you can afford it try an alarm system.  If you can't, there are trained guard dogs who can act as deterrants.  Do you have friends or relatives who can stay with you?  Are the police helpful?  Why do you have protection orders against your son and his wife (not my business).  A friend of mine has dogs - pets to her and her family, enemies to any who threaten her.