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I don't want to copy and paste what I wrote in my journal but if someone thinks they might want to help me can you please read it. Thank you for anyone who actually does...
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That's a very long read. The big question is are you suffering from major depression?

I happen to seffer from major depression. Have for 20 years. I can think of a million things in my life to over analize and dwell on order to find answeres as to why.

Fact is that for many people it's not you or your family or some past event in your life. Sometimes (actually in most cases) people that suffer severe depression do simply because they do. Ask a therapist or a Psychiatrist "why" and they will have no answer either.

Lets talk about your illness, exact symptoms, and your current treatment and forget all the whys and what ifs.

What is your current diagnosis (in more detail)???
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I dont have a diagnosis from a doctor, just my own. I know I'm depressed, have been since i went to high school. It's just gotten really bad in the last 3-4 years because I was in an abusive relationship. When I moved back in with my parents my mom got me to go to abuse councelling. I was seeing her for about a month but didn't want to say too much because I live in such a small town I didn't want to say anything to offend her or someone she knows. A little while after that I went to a doctor for an appointment and while I was there I brought up the fact that I was depressed and all he said was, "we aren't going to do that right now, just because you happened to think of it now. If you really are depressed make another appointment and we can deal with you then." He was so mean about it that I went home crying. I have since gotten a new doctor but don't see the point in bringing it up. My only treatment is my journal that I write in every once in a while or coming on here. I talk to my boyfriend a lot but I don't want to push him away so I don't want to say more than I have to. My friends don't listen to anything I have to say, they are sick of it and they are all so wrapped up in there own drama that no one else matters. I seem to have lost majority of my friends lately. I didn't have many to start with but the ones I did have all seem to have disappeared. Here I go again writing tons. I'll stop now.
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Well Linz, you want my honest oppinion? Yes, I think you may be suffering from Major Depression.

AS for the doctors you have seen....Rubbish. They were just MD's and they wouldn't know how to treat Major Depression if it slapped them in the face. (In fact it's probably a good thing this MD didn't try to treat your depression because he probably would have prescribed the wrong meds for it)

You MUST understand that expecting a regular MD to treat your Major Depression is much like expecting a Pediatrist to perform spinal surgury on you. "Bad idea."

The therapist and consolers....Eh, I wouldn't put much faith in them either. They always think they can talk away Major Depression, but they can't and never will be able to.

Major Depression can not be resoned with. It doesn't understand mercy, it doesn't care if you live or die. In fact it wants to kill you because that's what it does best.

About your Journal, it's good to write your feelings down. On the other hand I want you to start looking at your depression in more medical terms. Major depression is an actual mental illness and unfortunatly it almost never gets better without proper Psychiatric care and medications to ease the powerful symptoms it causes.

More recient medical findings about Major Depression indicate that many times it is not caused because of what we preceived to be a tramatic experience in our life. Rather there is now a ton of study that shows this disease has real biochemical reasons. It is not fully understood why it happenes to some people and not others.

Example? I have very severe Refractory depression (you don't even want to know the many meds I must take for it) anyway, I have never suffered a traumatic experience in my entire life.

In the other hand my best friend grew up in horrid conditions. His father was a raging alcoholic and used to beat him every night, His mother was cold and uncaring. His family was poor and he never got nice things like I did. Guess what? My friend is 39 years old now and has never suffered Major depression a day in his life. In fact he is doing quite well.

I see storys like this all the time. Life events and Major Depression do not have to go together.

My advice to you is to find a good Psychiatrist. Get an appointment, get a real disagnosis, and have him treat your illness so you can get back to life.
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