:-(

[joanna32]

i forgot to say in my last post there,i dont want to take my.own life i just want to stop the hurt and the pain,no matter how much i cry out for help there is no one to say it will be ok,a hand to reach.out to.me,anyone that i.know are staying away from.me turning blind eye to.all my mental.health.thats why i feel so alone,i wrote a letter i still.have it hidden that its self is cry for.help,i had one family.member call me just a lazy person.for having mental.health and saying.if i was going to take my.own life i.would of done it im so.dam angry

[joanna32]

Thank yous :-),im still finding it all so hard at the minute,i live on.for my children cause how can they live with me gone,im tryin stay strong its so hard when so alone,i am on meds but until i change few things in.my life at the minute i cant see meds helping,i.really.hope im strong enough to battle on and change this i.hate the night i hate the day light i wish i didnt waken.up again most times,im in a very dark place,i look at myself i dont know who i am anymore,if only it was easy to fight mental health,i feel sick and most days i vomit now with it all,i cant eat i think im shutting down bit by bit,doc gives me meds doubt this is my answer :-(

[Bubulous]

I will share something with you:
A woman went to see this guru because she wanted to learn everything there is to know.  The guru sit her in a cave and surrounded her with books to read.  Everyday the guru would come check on the woman and ask her "have you learned everything there is to know?"  She would look up and say "no."  The guru would strike her in the head with his cane and leave.  This went on for several months. Him asking the same question, her giving the same answer, and him rapping her on the head.  One day he walked in and asked her "have you learned everything there is to know?"  She fearfully said "no."  The guru drew back to hit her in the head but this time the woman grabbed the cane and jerked it from her hand.  Fearing punishment the lady looked up at the guru and he had a smile on his face.  "Congratulations," he said.  "You have learned that you will never know everything there is to know, and you learned how to stop the pain."
I like this because it is so true.  We can drive ourselves crazy in our heads but what we are really looking for is something or someone to stop the pain.

[zcbm]

A lot of people have no idea of what have mental issues is like. They chalk it up to laziness, or manipulation. They might think that all you have to do is be happy, and that it's not that hard to fight it. All you can do is try to explain what it's like to them, and if they still don't understand, move on. There will be people that do.