Need a friend.

[lostnlove49271]

It has been a really hard time for me the last year. Ive done alot of things i really regret. I was molested as a child, my dad couldnt stay faithful to my mom for ****, she was always crying and couldnt take of us. I was the child nobody wanted. All the frustrations were taken out on me.                                         I quit school at 17, got pregnant and married the ******* that would have killed me, had i let him. He was a pervert, he abused me and destroyed our 2 childrens little heads.    I tried not to let it bother me, but i cracked. Every1 use to praise me on how good of a mother i was, until now.                    After 10 years, i met another man. I instantly fell for him. He was caring, loving, and made me feel beautiful and sexy and smart. All the things my husband failed to do. I eventually left my husband and moved in with my now boyfriend. I got a job, was enrolled in college.. i was happy. My confidence sky rocketed! Then my bf found out about coworkers hitting on me and made me quit my job. It went downhill from there. We moved to another state and my son couldnt adjust to everything and begged to live with my dad. And i let him. I thought that over time he would adjust. We ended up losing a car and was down to 1 and i got a job from home. I had no help with my daughter and couldnt afford daycare so my aunt who lived 30 miles away helped me, so I could bring in more money. It seemed we never had gas to go get my daughter after work, my bf always had an excuse. He now controls me, says i will never amount to anything, and always suspects i am cheating. Ive recently got both my kids back at home and my bf is a living nightmare. He doesnt want to share me w anyone. He constantly puts down my 2 kids to me. Has made me believe my whole family hates me and says what friends i did have are trash. But for some reason i love him more than anything. Ive never been so depressed. I have no one to talk to. My kids father wants to sign over all rights, he wants nothing to do with them.

[depressed13]

like mommy2be928 said i dont know what youve been through but im here if you need to talk

[innerchild09]

The things he says is wrong. I think hes hurting you more then hes helping. Sounds like its reallyt hard to deal with. I agree you shouldnt let him talk you into thinking your family doesnt care. If you believed they cared before him and now you know him you dont think that then Im sure they do care. It sounds to me he has control issues. I think you are just going through a hard time in your life. Anyway not sure if anything I said helped but if you still need to talk I dont mind listening. Hope things work out for you.

[Mommy2be928]

Dnt let him think ur family dnt care becuz the only person u can count on is family not ur boyfriend.

[Mommy2be928]

Well i really dnt knw how u feel ,but im here as a friend and when you need someone to talk to well im pregnant and i live wit my mom my family isnt the best at all i raised my lil brother i still attended school and now im having a baby i should be happy but im depressed all the time because my bf is looking and looking for a job and my mom puts me down everytime and it hurts because she gets my bf mad at me....he is a jelous person and doesnt trust anyone around me at all...Well your not a failure at life people go through good times and bad times ur just going through a bad time and need support from ur friends and family, but u do knw  how to  be a mother knw one in diz wrold is perfect at all...so dont think ur a bad mom...jus be thankful ur children they should be da reason why u live and the reason why u shouldnt be controlled by ur boyfriend...


  -Bianca

[lostnlove49271]

I dont have any where to turn or go. I can barely be a mother to my kids. All i do is cry. It takes everything to get up in the morning. My bf refuses to comfort me. I am a failure at life. All this is my fault and i cant seem to make it right. Please, someone talk to me. I am on the edge.