Everyone has their own opinion. It will take multiple sessions to find the route of this porn addiction. I would highly recommend counseling with someone who has experience with porn addiction. There are also porn annominous groups and sex addicts groups. See if you have any in your area. I don't think your gay just because you are enjoying trans sexual porn. Let your counselor help you figure this out. Also think of the things that happened around you or with you when you were 12 that may have an impact on you watching porn.
maybe go to a psychologist, if only for a few sessions or counseling cause it's cheaper. All I know is that if you're the best while watching trans men it means you're gay. But I don't know from all you've written down.
Maybe try watching gay porn and see if there's any reaction to it.
But over all go to a counselor and tell them your problem because they may be able to determine if it's your sexual orientation or just something else.
yah, porn addiction is real like any other form of addiction. do you have low dopamine levels (ie other addictions, compulsions, ADHD, social anxiety, depression)? if so, you can self medicate yourself with a common sense approach:
How to Increase Dopamine Levels
1. Eat Nutritious Foods Rich in Antioxidants: You can increase dopamine naturally by eating foods that contain significant amounts of the amino acid tyrosine, which is a precursor for dopamine. Natural dopamine boosters are foods such as almonds, avocados, bananas (especially ripe ones), dairy products, lima beans, pumpkin seeds and sesame seeds. Also, eating foods that are rich in antioxidants, such as fruits, veggies, especially watermelon and apples, helps by protecting neurons from free radical damage.
Foods to avoid are sugar, saturated fat, refined foods, and foods high in cholesterol, as well as coffee, caffeine, soda, and alcohol, as they can interfere with proper brain functioning and can cause low dopamine.
2. Exercise: You can also increase dopamine levels by exercising for at least 30-45 minutes most days of the week. Studies have shown, that to a certain extent, exercise can increase serotonin and dopamine levels in the brain. In a May 2007 article in the Journal of Neuroscience, experts note that exercise may help the brain cells that utilize dopamine to not only work more effectively, but cause the dopamine to remain active for longer.
3. Interaction with People: Our interaction and relationships with other people are closely tied to dopamine transmission. Being social and interactive with others can raise dopamine levels while social anxiety has been linked to low dopamine. Fostering and maintaining healthy relationships may be one way to help maintain adequate dopamine levels.
4. Playing Challenging and Competitive Games: Several studies have shown that game playing triggers the brain to release dopamine. This makes sense to researches as games play a big role in how the brain handles reward and exploration. Sports, card games, competitive chess, and specifically video games deliver clearly understood rewards such as advancing to new levels, gaining more lives, new equipment, and new spells or powers.
5. Sleep: Getting at least 7 hours of good old fashioned sleep is one super easy way to raise dopamine levels. This works by providing time for the body to rest and then recuperate its sufficient levels of neurotransmitters.
if that fails, there are OTC additives, and then psychiatrists who will be more than happy to write a script, LOL.