It's not your fault. From what I am gauging from your post, your husband is the creator if your depression. You both may want to seek marriage counseling to see if you can resolve his issue, otherwise you may want to consider ending the relationship.
I am in a similar relationship where my wife treats me like a doormat but will be ending said relationship soon.
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you could join a club and make new friends or if you have animels you could walk them, im sorry for just stateing thease ideas i also suffer from depression being a single mother and that, gone through traumitizeing advents can lead to thease sorts of things, but ive been on this medication Prestiq anti depressant very good, keeps you stable, so you dont feel so lonesome, or feel useless and that, nobody vists me, i have family who dont talk to me, becaus ei had a child befor marriage, but what can you do, you are not alone, are there any social outings or groups you can join, you could join a gym, or swimming acrobats, i know im just throwing ideas at you that you may not even take hint to but i thought i should try.
have you considered going to group counseling with peers?? i went through a horrible depression when my kids left home. i ended up having another child just not to have to deal with it. my hands and mind were idle and that is not a good thing for me.
or maybe volunteering at a local hospital NICU unit. there are a lot of babies that have nobody to hold them and that would be fulfilling.
Hi, just kno u r not alone. Can u try going for a walk? It helps a lot. Or as silly as this sounds, start a journal and write down all ur frustrations. I'm depressed too. I'm a single 32 with a 10 mos old and live w my grandparents and handicapped aunt. I have no friends either. I feel like an elderly person bc all I talk about is sales at grocery stores and what Ellen and Oprah are up to. Lol.