constant sorrow

[blueburrycherry]

Well I've been upset for the past 2 weeks. Alot of things piled up on me after I came home for college for summer break. My dad was put in the hospital, I have no job, i needed the money to help pay for college and my car, and my friends well I don't really know what happend to them. I feel really lonley, more so then I've felt befor. My parents barly talk to me and I'm not very open about my emotions. I trust a few people but latley they have been pretty disrespectful to me and I feel even more lost. I cry almost every day and I know its over things I shoulden't be upset about. I might need to speak to someone professional about this because its constant now. The crying, the suicidal thoughts. Everyday is a drag to me. I just want to find my own strength to move on from this and be happy again.

[blueburrycherry]

Thank you for your responce. I'll have you know things are slightly looking up. You were right to keep my mind on the positive side. Not only do I feel better I can see myself comming back to life. I also learned that you have to know your friends. Sadly I still haven't talked to alot of them but I know the ones who have talked to me reasured I was a great person and things will be better. Also things between me and my family members are extremly weird. I try to talk to them but we end up butting heads. I don't like to argue but they seem to lead that way. I think over time I will back to normal but from the support from everyone I have in my network has help very much. I will still seek professional help but in the mean time I can live life again.

[SurfRake]

You deserve to be happy again, and I'm relieved you're motivated to ask for help. Please take the extra step and contact a professional. It helps. If the first therapist you meet with doesn't help or listen well, try another.  Take first steps. From what you've written you're self-aware enough to know you deserve better.

BTW, be kind to yourself this week. Try and do one, simple thing each day that has in the past been meaningful.

[biskwit]

After reading this i was touched, please think about this you are not alone, keep fighting with the depression, think of something thats positive you know that things will soon be fine. I know it will be a lot more harder work but you should not give up. You know sometimes i do worry about money up to now. but this should not let you down..instead think of something to do, what are your talents, where are you good at, what can i do to have my mind filled with positive thoughts. Crying is a cure for wound, you also mentioned about you not being emotional with your parents, that you hardly talk but while reading your message it seems that you are comfortable with it. Let your parents know what's happening with you, if you cannot talk to them or you may find it hard to confide personally, why not try to write it on and give it to them, in this way you can say what you really want to say. Its worth trying.

I am not a professional in terms of depression, but my girlfriend has bi-polar disorder. I know its hard but we are here to help you. I may not give you a good suggestions atleast this will help you outburst any feeling of loneliness that you may have.

I hope that in a way you can feel my sincerity and hoping that this will lighten the burden a bit.

Take care.

[MMahon]

Yes, you do need to speak to someone.  It will be helpful to you. You have  lot to deal with.
Try to speak to your parents.  It sounds like they are having a rough time of it too!
You all need to support each other and get back to a normal life.
Professional help is the way to go..
Look into doing volunteer work or working as an intern somewhere until you locate a job.
It'll keep your skills fresh and get you into the swing of things.
Depression is at it's highest this time of year and you need to work thru it.
I know that sounds easy but nothing worth achieving is.