deep inside years of pain

[Goodbipolar]

im middle aged and have had several mental conditions due to the death of my mother at 7 yrs old since then ihave not ever felt i was a normal person i became attatched from society and grieve in one way or another daily i have never had a true friend i could count on was physcally and emotionly abused by step parent i have deep wounds inside which are weeping constantly i have now just seperated from the one true love i ever had of 10 years and in such pain and for 3 weeks now i have cried daily im so scared of the inner thoughts of late i am in homeless shelter and my empty feeling inside is taking over me to a point that my whole life has been not worth the pain im in it brings me to tears just to say im a man who has so much to give in life and these emotions are making me feel otherwise

i write to express


when life becomes too much at times
we sit and think of loving rhymes
when you feel you your thoughts are true
i sit and think my thoughts of you
for your the one who showed me love
for your the one sent from above
now your gone out from my life
my heart is broke how will i survive

[SMcGregor]

Whether the departure of a loved one is sudden, or has been anticipated over a period of time, we experience a powerful and complex range of emotions of grief - including disbelief, shock, anger, hatred, guilt, loss of faith, fear of the future, loneliness, regret. Going through this is a normal part of the grieving process and is necessary to reconcile ourselves in some way so that we can move on from the experience to become a better, stronger person with a greater sense of purpose in life as a result. There is no doubt that time is an important component in reconciling and overcoming grief and loss. Eventually it is important to "Let go and let God" so that we can move on with life.

Talk about your feelings to a sympathetic friend, counsellor or spiritual teacher. Pushing down emotions, not expressing them, having a "stiff upper lip", and not talking about events, goes a long way to causing stress - post traumatic stress. Learn how you can consciously control your emotions so that painful subconscious feelings and reactions can be neutralised, and new feelings of acceptance, forgiveness and love can be chosen.  Regards,

[Issydora]

I like what Pamela said. It is nice that you express yourself trough poetry.
You seem like a kind and loving person who has been trough a lot, but still has hope. If you thought that everything was gone and there was no point in living, you wouldn't be here, would you? That is a proof how strong you are.
From your poetry it can be felt that you are very emotional and sensitive. I like to say it is not a bad thing :) true artists are usually that way :)
Just don't let yourself be consumed by the sadness that lies beneath emotionality. People who suffer and experience such bad things are usually people who are the best and the strongest among the crowd. You just need to find yourself inside that sadness.
I wish you well.

[CRSeaside]

Dear person. You are loved. You can be a light shining to others with your beautiful poetry.  Please find some peace today. Pamela