feelin totally disoriented..pls help

[vinokadir]

i am a 2nd year mbbs student.i used to really do very well in my studies b4 but now not able to study at all.i had a gud senior who helped me during my first yr coll.den we talked.i fell for him.he too liked me.but we had caste probs.so he told dis will not happen.all our communication ly thru calls and msgs.iv met him ly once dat too he wantd to advise me abt dis infatuation.days went like dat me upset and he advising me dat dis was mere attraction.suddenly one day he revealed he is a chronic carrier of hep B.he s hbsag +ve and hbeag-ve vertical transmission.am totally shattered til dis minute.he was also very depressed.he told he din want me to suffer my entire lyf dats wy he wanted to leav me.but im talking to him as a gud friend now after a long gap of no contact. but im not able to stop thinking abt him and dat hepb.i cry most of the nights.not reading much.no concentration at all.duno how to get ovr dis :( ;(

[vinokadir]

someone help... :-(

[vinokadir]

am really very upset.iv been reading abt hep b everywhere still my mind appears to waver.it doesn stay calm at all.im not reading my subjects rather ly abt hep b wheneva i turn on my net.am feeling much obsessed wit it.i want him to read well nd get a pg and get married and lead a very happy life.duno if am txting him im afraid il ask him anythin abt dis again and again nd upset him.but he wants me to be his friend ly.im totally confused as to wat to do!shud i continue txting him or leav him? will dat chronic carrier state of hepb affect his lyf? i also felt a strong desire to inject myself wit sum contaminated blood to get sum infection.im going mad.help me get ovr dis..plsssssssssssssssss :( :( :( ;(

[vinokadir]

iv been trying all dis.its been ovr an year.i really want to score well.wanna bcum a gud doctor.but coz of no peace of mind im not able to concentrate in studies.so i watch tv and sleep most of the time.i am worried whether he left me coz of dat hepb thing or bcoz of caste differences.but dat hepb thing always creates a room of sympathy for him.though he s a healthy carrier my mind s still not convinced.it jus keeps thinking abt it again nd again:(

[witheredrose]

Hi!
Im sorry you are feeling like this. Are you upset because of the hepB, or because he left you..or both? It seems like a phase, and it will pass, but how to cope until it does..its best not to let it be on your mind a lot, as a start. At least you still have him as a good friend! TRY TRY TRY keeping yourself busy throughout the day, find things to do that will occupy your mind so you dont think about it so much! Best of luck!!! *HUGS*