I am right there with you. My life is just over. There is no way around it. No job, No insurance, No money, No family.. No where to go. Sure am not going up that is for sure. Tried taking some meds Wellbutrin that I had here and made me suicidal. So I cut back to 150 mg only in the morn. Still so sad I wish I could just fall asleep. Just want it over.
I know I need meds but not sure what would work. I was on Lexapro with this and was a bit more stable but it was a killer to get off of so don't want to take it again.
If you are young, you have chance. To hell with Teeth, your heart and brains will get you where you need to go.
I am the worst person to comment. Hopefully someone smart will get on here and show you the way out. Lots of good people and support here. Unfortunately, I just can't get out of this black.
Good luck to you.
We've had several exchanges on the Anxiety foum, and I just wanted to offer you some hope.
I know that the depths of despair that come with anxiety and depression are intense. But, like myself and others have told you, there IS help and there IS hope. You won't feel like this forever. We recommended you seeking out a new doctor and trying some new approaches. Have you tried that yet? It's so easy to get discouraged and lose the will to fight, but you can't get better if you don't TRY. You have to help yourself!
You're young with your whole life ahead of you. With the right help, you can crawl out of that black hole you're in. Please don't stop fighting the good fight. So many of us have been where you are and while it may be easier to just say "I'm done, I don't care anymore"...it's much more rewarding to say, "I WON'T let this beat me...I will keep trying until I find the answer." Take back the control and the power...you make your life what you want it to be, and so many of us need help to do that.
Best of luck to you!
Another thing..it goes without saying that if you are contemplating suicide you need to seek help right away! It's NOT the answer!
Choosing suicide over actively and aggresively seeking treatment for depression would be like deciding to cut your arm off after getting a bad injury instead of finding a doctor who could fix it.
That isn't to downplay the seriousness and very REAL presence of suicidal thoughts, but rather to hopefully make you understand that it should NEVER EVER be an option.
I won't lie to you. Life is hard but It is like a roller-coaster. Sometimes, the ride down seems so much longer but it will come up again...I promise that. In the future, life will be different for you, but you have to wait for it. You don't want to miss the opportunity. I see many people who end there lives, some young and some older but it is so sad when they do because they have missed the opportunities to have a good life. I don't always have a good life, and sometimes I do. I was from a dysfunctional family, raped 4 times by 7 men and a woman as a virgin, have a life threatening disease, had to give up my education, and now live in a trailer and am on chemo. BUT I have had a lot of great days and joys also.I never know what tomorrow will bring, and that is exciting. I have a daughter who needs me and my joy is teaching her, and watching her develop into her own person. Your children need you to teach them, they need a Mother. Please just wait for your life, and if you don't feel like you can, then get some help from a hospital or a church, but somewhere. I saw your picture...you look very beautiful!!! Really!
I have had depression since I was 8 years old. I was 8 years old when I first attempted suicide...8...years..old. What does an 8 year old have that is so bad in their life right? It is the depression, pure and simple that brings on those kind of feelings. As long as there is breathe in your body there is hope to fight this. There was no help for me back then so I would let the suicidal thoughts consume me just like they are consuming you now. I kept breathing and kept hoping and I got though it. I have had those kind of thoughts through out my life but I get though them and live on. The bright side is now I have become very resourceful and have reached out to professionals to help me construct a support system for the times when I have those kind of thoughts. I've come along ways from 8 year old in unbearable pain. I still have to breathe and I still have hope. I take it day by day. Every soul has peaks and valleys in there lives, every soul. You are going through a valley right now. Gather your hope and take a deep breath and take it one step at a time. I'm routing for you. I know you will pull out of this.