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what if it geys to be to much?

I've been seeing Dr's for 10 years now and I've gone from not being able to stop crying due to the death of a child in my home  ,to having seizures from the meds being to strong , to not being able to concentrate , to  walking in front of a forklift because I could'nt think straight to losing my job because of my illness. You name it I've been there.  I've been told I'm bipolar,  have mixed personality traits  ,anxiety disorder , post tramatic stress disorder ,borderline personality disorder.and I just don't remember what else. I was doing alright while I had medicaid so I could see the Dr ,the  therapist  ,and go to the group meetings. but when my governor  haley barbor cut the medicaid benifits for mental illnesses,I haven't been able to go to anything but the Dr to get my meds. since. so for nearly 4 years I've been barely staying alive.  I moved recently to another town and now I can't even see a Dr. I live on $1000.00 a month and they said I would have to pay $59.00 for an intake, $75.00 for my first visit, and $48.00 for every visit after that. and this is supposed to be on a sliding scale. what do they think I'm going to eat or pay my way with.  I feel like I'm being pushed Into a corner.I worked all my life and now at 61 years old I find myself an ald woman with no where to turn to .my question is how much more can I take I don't want to die but I'm just so very very tiredof fighting to stay alive.
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Many folks on the depression thread don't know how to handle what you're going through, this thread is generally for folks with a simple diagnosis not multiple diagnoses.
You might want to look at the Bipolar or the Borderline forums, I know many folks on the Bipolar thread that have a lof of info specifically for individual states.
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doesn't anybody out there care!!!
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