whats wrong with me??

[zane910]

I'm a 30 year old male who has a history of depression in my family. I have 1 good friend in my life that I talk to on a daily basis. (not about my depression though) I also have a group of about 10 guys that hang out quite a bit and I'm usually not there. Ive known these guys for 10-15 years. I feel nervous when I'm around all these guys and usually am very quiet sitting in the corner. I very often leave early from tese functions (playing cards, bbq's etc.) I just dont feel comfortable around these people and I dont know why?? I think I actually lose friends because I never want to go hang out with these guys that I've known for a long time. Any advice>or has anyone else felt this way?

[kiry]

This is how I felt prior to taking just 25-50 gm of Zoloft.   I am currently trying to come off of it becuz it had sexual side effects which were having a negative impact on my marriage.  Now I am back to these not very social  feelings..... on the Zoloft, feelings of not belonging just seemed to disappear and I became a social person inside a circle of very nice friends (while living in another country, with friends from a different land).

Consider reading Listening to Prozac.  

I am feeling like I am having a bit of an identity crisis after having read this...nevertheless, I think it is important reading and certainly helps me know that antidepressant medications are powerful and that one can really consider the philosophical implications of their use.  

It is nice, uplifting and just fabulous to be more at peace, which is what I am on my anti depressants!

[EmandGGsmom]

I have come to the conclusion that some of us are just born this way. I have never been a social butterfly. I've been in situations to where I have had to fake it (job related)
Maybe if you have been hurt in the past, you are afraid to get close to anyone? OR maybe you have just picked the wrong 10 people to hang out with. Is it possible that you don't have that much in common with them and you don't have that much fun when you are with them? I feel this way all of the time. What is it about your 1 good friend that you like? I bet that person makes you feel comfortable and accepts you for how you are, right?