Hi! losing weight doesnt have to be so hard. Many of us in this community face similar challenges everyday.
I am not a big fan of "diets" so i would not recommend one for you. Exercsing and eating healthy is the way to go.
Unless you learn to ove yourself, this weight loss journey is going to be hard one. It's not your fault or any one fault that you have to lose weight. If you feel you have to lose weight, I am sure it can be done!
Here are so many of us waiting to help you, all you ned to do is particpate in the community, look for new ideas and keep this fun and simple.
While you are in the community may i suggest you add the weight tracker and mood tracker to your profile. They can certainly help you set a goal and monitor your progress. In the url below you will find the insrtuctions to add the weight tracker to your profile.
http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Weight-Loss/How-to-Set-Up-Your-Weight-Tracker/show/459?cid=129
Also give a serious thoguht about using a food journal. It can help you monitor your calorie intake and keep it in check...You can use calorieking.com to count calories.
Please let us know if you need further assistance with anything.