From the symptoms that you described she was getting close to passing on her on and when they began to start doing all those things there bodies are in the end stages
I have dealt with all those symptoms with 3 of my furbabies and I was even doing sub-qs at home trying to keep them as comfortable as I could.My 15 It old Peke went into to kidney failure and would start to get better and then she would get really sick again Before she passed she seized 3 times in my arms and I knew it was time for her to go and within a few seconds she passed on her own..It was hard losing her but I felt a peace knowing she wasn't suffering any more.I absolutely adored my baby girl and felt apart of me that day went as well But I knew she was at peace and that brought me some comfort.
Your baby knew how much you loved her and was very blessed to have had someone take such good care of her as what you did!! Try to find peace in knowing she is whole again and that you went above and beyond to give her such a wonderfully life of love and happiness!
Hello. I am the administrator of the Chronic Kidney Disease in Dogs User Group here on MedHelp, so I greatly empathize and with some knowledge of what you are going through. It is heartbreaking.
That dreadful "guilty" feeling is all too common, but truly you have nothing whatsoever to feel guilty about. You did the right thing, at the right time. Your baby had so many issues to deal with, and none of them were going to be resolved, so the likelihood is that things would have continued to deteriorate, probably quite rapidly.
There are many things we can do to "manage" kidney disease when it's caught early enough and before too much damage has been caused to the kidneys and other organs. But truly, that's only when the only problem is kidney disease, and your best friend had several other major problems on top of it.
Helping our dogs is sometimes the hardest thing we do, when that help means allowing them to leave us, peacefully. You were unselfish, because clearly you would have preferred to keep her with you - but that would have involved more pain for her, and an inevitable decline in health.
I am very sorry for your loss.
Tony