Marley still holding on...

[landa888]

Hello,

I have a question regarding  dogs being sick, and feeling the need to keep fighting their illness in order not to upset or leave their owners?  I have decided to put my baby Marley down tomorrow morning.  She has been sick for almost three weeks now.  Tried everything, from food, drugs, bloodwork, ultra sound etc etc.  Her system is shutting down slowly, and I am so sorry that I can not help her.  This past weekend was bad for both of us.  Vomitting  all night, and barely drinking any water.  I initially said that I would never ever euthanize any of my dogs.  I now realized that I was being selfish, and simply can not bare to see her suffer anylonger.  Anyways, I cried w/ her in my arms.  Told her sweet things, about how she has always protected me, that she was loved, and that I would miss her.  I also told her that it was ok if she was ready to go.  Deep in my heart, I do feel that she is ready to go, but wont let go because of me.  I thought that I would wake up Sunday morning and she would be gone, but she wasnt.  She is very sickly and barely making it.  I feel so bad for waiting so long to have her put to sleep.  She is 12 and has liver cancer.  She still wags her tail, and meets me at the door everytime, as a faithful and loyal dog would.  She still holds on regradless of her weakness and how much pain that she is in.  Is it possible that a dog will try to stay around for the sake of their owners?  She knows that I love her and will miss her very much.  And is it okay to let your sick dog see you crying and upset?  I really didnt mean to, but I just couldnt help it, or hold it in any longer.  But her lil eys looking up at me, so sad, just made me get emotional.  I am taking her in the morning, but feel bad, when I see or imagne that there is still some life in her.

[Margot49]

Marley is at peace and will always have that special place in your heart.  You made the best decision and hiw lucky she was you lived her so much.
Hugs

[landa888]

Thanks I appreciate your comments.  I was nervous from the time that I woke up this morning, but I still think that she was trying to fight it for my sake.  She is gone now, and I am sad.  I cried my hard out this morning.  So far my other dog is doing fine.

[jdplunkett]

I can not bear to see animals suffer either.. take comfort in knowing that you have done your best and will be in your doggies best interest to be free of pain and suffering. ..

[Margot49]

This just rips at my heart as I am sure it does to anyone that reads this.  Unfortunately, many of us have had to travel this path with our beloved pets.
I know exactly where you are coming from as I went through a very similar situation with a beloved Doxie of mine that mammary cancer.  I was much younger and just could not bring myself to let her go.  Had two surgeries done but the cancer had spread.  I finally decided I would let her go the next day and she passed that night.  I then knew that, there being no hope or quality of life left for her, I had let her suffer too long.  I knew I would never let a pet of mine suffer like that again.
I have had to make these difficult decisions a few times over the years and it is "never" easy.  
You have to find comfort in the fact you had this wonderful companion in your life and how lucky she was to have that special bond with you.
Sometimes, this is actually the last act of love and kindness we can do for them.
I pray Marley has a peaceful passing and will be running at The Rainbow Bridge waiting.
Hugs.  You are doing the right thing.