Ok so it took a while for me to ask for help. heres a little backgroud.I was overweight in my teens. I started exercising and am now in pretty decent shape. Funny thing is that I'm a personal trainer.
But my Bulimia is destroying me! There was once a day that my willpower was so strong.
I need your help.this is my situation....I am purge free all week, but once a week I work as a chef, and I binge on what ever I can,then purge.sometimes this happens a few times during the evening.I feel so week and depressed. I used to work two days but had to cut it to one as I did not want to purge two days a week.HOW SAD IS THAT.I actually have to sacrifice 100euro because I cant controll myself. All week I eat a 80% raw vegan diet and exercise,and drink water.
Does anyone have any advice,tips for me to get through an evening at work? I even bring in boxes and boxes of nice food......but usually just eat it all, then eat everything else,then purge... I have even tried chewing niquteen gum while at work.nothing works.arrrghhh.This time last year I had such strong will power. I would not even look at junk food.
This is getting out of control